Now I'm gonna try to get back to where I was headed before the new ahhhhhh haaaaa. That's whats nice about writting I have a choice.
Now about being stubborn. My 2 biggest ahhhhh haaaa's have been lost because I am stubborn about details.
That's what it was. I finnally got it about give and recieve. I have always heard that, but how cliche' right? wrong. I get it.
I have always known how to give give give give give. But I didnt know how to recieve. I get it now.
When I give give give give I am worn out and every once in a while I feel used and abused. I feel that I have been taken advantage of. Well the most important part is how I must have made others feel. See there I go again, the most important part is how I made others feel (bullshit) I should have said JUST AS  important is how I made others feel, not even MORE important. Look how a few words change the whole meaning of something.
I realize I have made others feel good when I have given them advice but what about when they give me advice or say something that could be so meaningful to me if I would just look for what they can teach me. I have learned alot since that big ahhhhh haaaaa.
So the point is. I must be willing to give only as much as I am willing to recieve. I got it