Ok I need to get back on thoughts and think. It really helps me. I have been checking in on everybody but I just couldn't think of any one thing to write,
Today I'm thinking that is exactly why I need to write it down, to start to get it all together in my head to be able to move forward.

I am moving forward with Stir the Soul, it's just a big scary project that I know nothing about other then I am going to figure it all out. I am open. I know it's not going to be easy, I know I will hit road blocks, nothing is ever easy, but I am ready.

I have Trevor in place. I was able to get him out of Jail on the 8th of Feb and on the 13th he went into Teen Challenge, a year long in residence drug and alcohol program. I don't know how he is doing because we have no contact for the first 21 days.

Teen Challenge is what I am looking into to model my center around. I am going to be in contact with one of the head peeps in the program to help me make a decision if that may be where I will go with my center.
I had to get Trevor in place first, he was the main focus for the last month. I was working on getting him somewhere to get help instead of in the Jail where there is NOTHING positive going on in there. If only they really had a way to help the people in jail, maybe they could come out of jail and be better then when they got there BUT  that is a whole story within itself.

I asked Trevor when he was in maximum security for the violent offenders if he told anyone why he was in with the violent offenders and he said "No Way" It would be best for these people in here to think I killed a cop, if they knew I bit a nurse when they were putting a catheter in me they would kill me, it made him look tough being in there and he wanted people to think he was tuff. It's a matter of survival in jail. It didn't help much that he is a young looking 19 year old, his hair had grown out which made him look even younger. The first time the atty. saw him she came back and told me "yeah we need to get him out of there fast, he sure doesn't fit the profile.

I am waiting to visit Trevor and then we are heading to Tenn. to get the ball rolling. Like I said I did not choose this path, it has chosen me. I never in a million years would have thought this is what I would be called to do. It's like a voice in my head that will not go away. I can not quite the voice. Lord knows I have tried. Better be careful what you wish for. I was so distraught over the craziness in the last year that I felt completely out of control and I handed it over to God and said this is way bigger then me GOD PLEASE TAKE THE WHEEL and I allowed him to do so.

I didn't even remember until I was reading over my blog that I got the ahhhh haaaa to trust the process and I am trusting the process. I am open to receiving.