My sister has just  returned from overseas on leave. Just like every other visit, my family acts like she hung the moon. I love her to death, but why is it I cease to exist when she's around? She will be getting out of the service in August this year and is planning on coming home. That worries me. What will become of me?

I know this seems incrediably selffish, but I am very close with most members of my family and I don't want to loose that connection. I have discussed the option with my husband about moving out of state to live near his parents about the time she is to return to the states. A part of me feels this is a drastic step, and another part thinks, I should do this for myself.

The only reason we have not moved away up to this point, was because my sister left to join the service and I didn't want to leave my mother and grandmother. I know that my mom would say it was fine, and to do what I needed to do with my life. But deep down I always felt she would be disappointed in me for leaving. Maybe I am over analyzing the situation. I don't want to leave my family. And all I have watned for the last 5 years is for my sister to come home. Now I just want a fresh start. Start over with everything.