How come all of the friends that I make are a lot younger than me? When I was working at all of those restaurants, all of the friends that I had were younger than me. And back then, I really didn’t mind, but now all of my younger friends want something from me. I can buy them booze. Do I look like a moron that will just by younger kids booze? I have friends that I think the only reason that we are friends is that I am 21 and can legally buy booze for them.

I want to have a lot of friends. But I want them to be friends that want me to be their friend, because I have an awesome personality, and not just because I can go to the gas station and buy beer, when they are board.

I need to have friends that are older than me. Not just because I think that I am being taken advantage of. But I also think that I want to have a conversation about a non high school issue. It is nice to talk to them about other stuff, but the conversations always end up in the same place; who is with who and who is being a pain. I can’t relate to those kinds of conversations. I have moved on in my life, past such superficial, high school style drama.

I want an adult to talk about how college is hard, or how about needing to have a job sucks, or even about some of the same things that I talk to my high school friends about. Adults have a different perspective on the world. It would just be nice to have a change of pace in my conversations.

I should just ask some of the people in my classes to hang afterword or get some of the people that I work with too hang out with me after work. But that’s how I had made my friends when I worked at the fast food restaurants. I used to take the high school kids to the IHOP after work, just to hang out, build cohesion within the team. But that kind of bit me back in the end.

As a matter of fact that is how I came to be friends with all of the high school kids that I now hang with. I met through the IHOP. One of them used to work there, and some of his friends came in all the time. And now I am not so good of friends with Dan (The guy that worked there), but I became very good friends with his friends while he worked there.

I am glad that I don’t know where to get drugs. I am afraid that one of my younger friends, Preston, would want me to get him pot. I don’t want my friends to do drugs. I have said so many times.

I have some older friends that I met through the IHOP; my friend Keith. His sister was a waitress there. I got to be great friends with her. Then I got to be good friends with her brother. I don’t feel like he uses me, when he wants to hang out with me. He wants to go off and do ecstasy (most of the time) with this other group of friends that he hangs out with.

We are good friends, but I don’t think that we have all that much in common. I need to make friends who love to watch Star Trek. But it is so hard to find people who like that show as much as me. I could go and find people just like me (Star Trek wise) on the Internet, but I have such a hard time when I can’t see the person who I am communicating with. Still, I need people who have similar interests.

But finding older people that I could work with; that would solve my problem. But it might make some of my younger friends feel alienated. I don’t want that. I don’t like having people angry at me. I want to be liked by everyone.