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I was diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder about six to seven years ago. For the most part I consider myself hypomanic, which is good I guess. I am rarely depressed (knock on wood), except for when I am PMSing, but I guess that is some of the reason I feel so depressed now. I am feeling pressure, stress, and depressed. Because the depression is what scares me the most - the last time I was severely depressed, I either lost too much weight or gained too much weight. I also tend to hide from the world and not talk to anyone - not even my husband (which is what being depressed is, but I tend to be somewhat introverted anyway), which frightens the hell out of me because I always get scared that I'll get stuck in that phase, wallowing in my rock-bottom depression, never able to escape. Sometimes I stay in bed for days. I have periods of manic and depressive in 2 -3 week cycles approximately and I don't know if I'm coming or going. One thing that I have learned throughout the years is that I find solace in other manic depressives because they truly understand whatI go through.
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Posted by tracyshively on 2008-06-22 09:20:06 | Rating: | Views: 74
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I understand, I really do. I've been there, done that. i'm mostly combo - manic depressive with bouts of hypo mania but the depressive side's the worst, especially when it's got mania tied in.
You're not zombied out, still got too much energy but you're so depressed you can't stop the tears, it's hard to keep from hurting yourself, etc, etc, etc.
i envy your mostly mania side, I'd give anything to avoid the deprssion.
Not sure what treatment if any you've been using but in the last coupla months I sorta stumbled onto risperdal which has worked wonders in my live. All of the cycles have been spread out wider and they're so much weaker. For the most part I'm normal these days, other people's normal, not mine (I always say mine is barely sane).
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Posted by Tony51203
on 2008-06-27 22:24:52
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my comment disappeared
I love your writing
welcome
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Posted by roe
on 2008-07-05 20:34:35
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where have you been?
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Posted by roe
on 2008-08-11 02:07:50
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