Okay now i am going to get this i have no idea how to save a draft so now no more distractions I'm writing this for sure now..But i really thought this would help me talk about who i am and write down my thoughts i doubt anyone will read this..and this gives me another excuse to delete my myspace but i probably won't..but well I'm going to really actually start now

I think i wrote this like 3 times now but i really can't wait to get a tattoo i just want sleeves and a huge chest piece but my parents would kill me and i think they would look really shitty when i get older but whatever ya know your old you look shitty anyways why not add to the shit looking..
All I dreamed up, all that seemed like luck seems silly to you now.
All I said to you, all I did for you seems so silly to me now.
Screaming like no one might call the cops and arrest you this time.
Standing back against my building's back door, you're hoping for a ride.
I know the world's been mean to you, I've got a cure, hold tight.
I know the world's not fair to you, I've got a cure for it's crimes.
I don't think anyone understands how much i love tegan and sara when i went through my i like girls phase i loved all there music soo soo much..well that phase is way over but they always stayed being my lesbian crushes i don't know i will always think they are amazing if you never got there new CD sainthood you really really have to get on that its amazing all there Cd's get better and better each time...

getting those pictures took longer then it should have but whatever what i do to make everything look good and neat i geuss..but okay moving on

this band is also so very very amazing friendly fires godd i would die to hear them live in my bedroom every morning playing friendly fires to wake me up..then my life would be complete well i think i just need a whole lot better music i need to do a total 180 which i kind of have i have been listening to rap music constantly Lil Wayne is my idol i know a lot of people probably say that but whatever i don't give a fuck i love him and his music also T.I is one of my favorites i loved his song what up whats happen in soo so great..i hate "scene pop" music like heavy heavy low low god shit suckss..
All around me new love and it makes me sad.
All around me feel assured that you'll be back,
If I imagine you, body next to another.
Stop crying to the ocean, stop crying over me.
Stop worrying over nothing, stop worrying over me.
So it's been so long since you said,
Well I know what I want and what I wants right here with you.
that is also my favorite song by tegan and Sara called "the ocean" i wish that CD could of came out the beginning of last year it really could have helped me get over my relationships but whatever i was able to get over them in other ways i guess i just hope if someone reads this and they read that and they look them up..But yea this song just spoke to me i guess i was dating this girl for almost 2 years and then it went totally down hill and I'm not going to go into to much detail about it but i can finally say i am over it we still talk like we are best friends which i think everyone wishes they had..

But now i am dating probably the best guy in the whole world no joke..We have been friends since 10Th grade and i finally told him that i liked him and now i could not be any happier with anyone else i know people hate it when people go on and on about there boyfriends but i never got the chance to so I'm doing it now..we aren't the cutest couple or anything but i would not want to play tetrin 6 with anyone else but him.. c: that was corny as shit but whatever i don't give a flying fuck
Might paint something I might want to hang here someday,
Might write something I might want to say to you someday,
Might do something I'd be proud of someday.
Mark my words, I might be something someday.
I hate it when you have to censor yourself around people i think that is the most fucking annoying thing ever like you will hang out with the people who don't like cursing the people who don't like making jokes and its like lighten up its words chill the fuck out..especially when people bitch about it too its like freedom of speech bitch chill out..but what i think is really annoying when people try to force out religion OMGG that is my biggest pet peeve of all time but that is for another day another blog...

So i think i am the only college student who didn't sign up for spring semester o well I'm taking all art classes and no one at this school probably takes them because there all nurses and business people..so stupiddd well i have about 20 minutes left before i have to go to the dumbest class of all time..so I'm going to make the rest of this a easy read and just to put my mind out there..

I have become so obsessive with Chinese paintings you do not understand i want to just go out and do a whole series of them this picture reminds me so much of how the old Winnie the pooh was illustrated..i think I'm going to go into doing illustration I'm so very excited for it..

Godd i miss that not the new Winnie the pooh but the really really old how it was sketched i think it is amazing. i just want to go out and buy all the old books now but i have class i will probably add on a whole bunch at a later time..
THankyou for reading