"What should I do with your brothers poker chips" she said, as cool as if we never were lovers. I told her to keep them, he doesn't care. She said "I also have some clothes, and your ring" I told her I knew she had my ring, I left it, hell no other finger would it fit as far as I'm concerned. And the whole time we're talking, she acts as if I am fine. GOD DAMN YOU TIFFANIE! and damn my heart for loving you. I had a great day all lined up for forgetting. Ball with some friends, work in the evening, head over to my brothers afterwards, it was so perfect, just what I needed. Then she called.
   I set my phone to silent days ago. I got tired of my heart stopping every time it rang, praying it was her. I got a job, and started calling friends. I did everything I coulsd to shake her from my heart, then she calls. I remeber back a few years ago a break up I was in, where I called a girl to tell her I found some of her stuff. This was a ploy for me to see her, maybe to "hook up", I dont think Tiff's that kind of girl, but then I never thought my Tiff would crush a man for fun either(I know it wasn't for fun:p). But the rest of this day I've been nuts thinking about her. I wanted so bad to call her when I left work, I couldn't go to my brothers because she just lives another 15 minutes up from him.  And now I'm back to hurting! I'm throwing my phone away(not really, but I might change my number). See the thing is, I want her, I want to fix this, and at the same time, I want to forget all about her, because someone so heartless as to send me off to suffer alone doesn't deserve the love that I so desperatly want to give her (twisted aint it;) ).
  So now I've stumbled. And tomorrow I will stand again.
 

As I lay my weary body, my heart still cries her name
my mind wont let me rest just yet, thoughts of this tragic game
and in waking I know I'll die, like every morning since
but I will stand once more ,and still once more again.