It's now 11:30am and I can't even believe that I still havent slept yet. I thought everything would be fine so far and technically everything is great. Nothing bad has happened as of now and I'm watching Rob and Big with my uncle and cousin. They're both laughing hysterically at their stupidity and in all honesty so am I. LOL! But I got bored and Im here just writing what comes into my head. Ive been working like crazy lately and Im sorta getting tired. I know that I shouldnt even be working like I do but I can't help it. I got so many things to pay off. Car, cell, rent (even though I'm still living in my mom's house), car insurance, gas, food, laundry, etc. I feel like I really don't have time for myself and I think it's time for me to do something for me for the first time in a really long time. I was hearing something on the radio called Musicians On Call. It's a program where actual musicians are brought together to go from hospital to hospital and perform for the patients. People like Kelly Rowland and the lead singer from Daughtry and even small local groups have done this from time to time. It's amazing and to be honest I want to become part of it. But considering my schedule... 3am: newspaper delivery, 6am: nap, 7am: getting ready for work, 8:30am: office work, anywhere between 5:30pm and 7pm: leave to go home and do chores, 9pm: sleep... I have no idea how to do it. I wanna be able to do what I love the most which is either performing or just helping people in general. But it's gonna be so hard to do volunteer work like that. Especially when I have to go to the city to do it. It's not something that I can just pick up and do. I wanna be able to be proud of something that I did as a young adult.... Since college didn't really work out for me. But that's a different story. It wasn't fair that I couldn't be able to do it but it was something that I had to let go. Not because I wanted to. It was more because I had to and I had no other choice. But don't worry... The passion for me to go back is still there and I know I WILL eventually go back. Anyways, I want to be able to say that I did something well and fulfilling. I think that I should just fill out the app and just see what happens. I just really want to be able to do something like that since the idea and the concept of the program is something that I strongly believe. Music helps life. Music is life. And if life is in danger, music will be life's immortality.... AH, what the hell.... I'm gonna do it. What's a little more information going to do? =)
It's always worth a shot.
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