It's been a shitty time, being stuck with a narcisstic religious nut and working my arse off to cover for her frequent 'emergencies' and trying to dodge her poisonous missiles. In between, I have been worn to a shadow and sleepless wondering how I could've avoided this crap. Why are the most adulterous people the most religious? I mean, this woman gave me such a bad time, terrible, and all the time she was having an affair with one of our colleagues and everyone got quite cross because I wouldnt discuss it. But the way I was thinking was, they're probably friends, and eventually when it became apparent I thought,. I dont want to know. She became a eucharistic minister shortly afterwards and I knew that she was creating an alternative persona, but who's to say that is wrong? 

I cant be angry at her for the mischief she gets up to, but it upsets me that I worked so hard, and sensible, logical, supposedly intelligent people go through with procedure and policy to my detrement and her advantage. I already knew the job I was doing was disappearing and I was looking for an out but I didnt expect my agency to  let me down, not with all the hard work and diligence. Now I'm starting a new job and my confidence is zero. My sex lfe is non=existent, which I find very difficult. my romantic life died about ten years ago. or 20 plus 8. Every day I look at my husband and my heart bursts with how much I love him but I feel so much pain when I look for something other than sex in return. If he can sing poetry for sex, cant he give a little poetry for me, his wife? I met someone who was kind and it confused me so much I babbled for over an hour!