So, today i havent done much, but it's been dreary.  My day was a little bland, and while it was a good respite from the usual havoc, it wasnt as pleasant as i would have wished.  I kinda want a day of bliss.  a day of sanctimonial harmony, so to speak.  i want a day for myself, but it always seems like i'm torn between a ton of different things.  with a speech comepetition, tons of homework, the play, and trying to keep myself healthy.  sleep is something that i lack.  food is scarce in my mouth, and i just wish i could have those two things.  

My love life, is on the same track as my personal life...nonexistant.  i wish i had a girlfriend, or someone to just sit and hold when i'm feeling down like this.  i want someone to occupy my time.  i know there isnt much free time, but it seems that i always make free time for a person like that, and that is just what i need.  i also just want to break down.  i wanna cry like the rain.  i want to scream like a tornado siren.  i want to feel good about myself.   ho-ho-hum... i miss being in a relationship soo much.  this breakup didnt hurt me, but the fact of being single sucks ass.  i wish i could be happy again.  it seems like i havent been truly happy since the breakup.  i wasnt messed up about the breakup, but i havent been as happy as i was then.  this shit sucks.  someone help...

But, right now, i am watching a pretty good movie, entitled TMNT (teenage mutant ninja turtles).  It's not bad, but it holds nothing against all of the originals.  Man those were kickass.  i love the originals.  i have been a TMNT fanatic since i was a little kid.  

I really need a lift, guys,  i have hit an all time low on personal life.  i miss how it used to be.  me having tons of free time.  but now i'm super busy.  

as a boost, could you guys send me some lyrics that you think i might like.  music is my anti-depressant, and i was hoping you guys could give me some suggestions.