Dear JJ.,

hey today i heard that song again and it was like pulling a scab off a cut thats not fully healed. man why did you have to go out that night why couldn't you have stayed home. you will always be in my heart but i just wish you were here.

i wish i could pick up the phone and call you and hear you voice hear your laugh but they don't have a phone number for where you are. man you could have had the shot you wanted with me.but now we will never get to have that shot

i pretend to be ok . i laugh crack jokes and pretend that i don't think about you but i think about the brilliant life thats been snuffed out to early.and it breaks my heart at least 5 times a day.i can't help thinking about you man how could you just leave like that.I just wished we hadn't fought like we did the last time we saw eachother. and i am so sorry about what i said but now its to late to take it back but if i could i would.man its just not far

you remeber that time at your house when we cooked out with jed and molly and you told me you were going to be the next emerald and i just laughed but i knew you would be becuase you were a fucking awesome cook always.

man i just wish you had stayed home instead of going to that party there would have been plenty others.even though you went you should have stayed the nigh i know bobby and crystal would have been pissed but atleast you would be alive now.

man i will always love you and think about you.you were a crazy good person

love always and forever ,

jammie