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i have not written anything in a while and well i really dont have anything to write about. im kind of in a tight spot in my life. im 2 dys is the anniversary of my moms death and well im not sure how to deal with it. its like every year around this time my dad starts to act weird like he dosent want me around. it gets to me every year but this year its worst. he dosent say anything to me all he does is talk to my little brother. he would look at me over dinner and it feels like he blames me for everything that went wrong in his life. he gives me the look like he wants me out of his life. i feel like im the only one who see's this. its like he wants me to disappear. and to tell the truth i feel like inned to....so yesterday i called my grandparents up in dakota and they said that i could stay with them untill my dad feels better which got me upset, arent they suppose to be on my side?
i dont know what im suppose to do? i dont want to walk away from my father without working things out! i want to atleast explain to him what im thiking? i want to know if he wants me gone....im starting to feel like everyone wants me gone............well im leavig to my grandparents in a while so i guess this is the end of this blog:):)):):):):):):):):):):).............untill next blog!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! |
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Posted by thoughts101 on 2008-03-12 15:15:23 | Rating: | Views: 58
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I doubt he blames you for everything. From the sounds of it, with the only talking to your brother, his problem is that you remind him of your mother. Do you look like her or speak like her, act like her?? It's not that he wants you gone he just feels the loss a little bit more because of the living reminder. Does that make sense??
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Posted by eeerm
on 2008-03-13 09:06:15
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I think that eeerm has it all figured out. I agree with him. I am sure that your dad loves you very much and is just hurting over the loss of your mom just like you are. Hang in there. I hope it gets better for you.
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Posted by highfill
on 2008-03-23 06:35:20
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