Everyone else started blogging with an about me..I totally skipped that and went right into it haha. So here are the "Memoirs of a middle child in a really big family" (aka...about me lol)

I am 16 years old, I have 5 brothers and 3 sisters. My brothers are 26,24,22,21, and 14. My sisters are 9,7, and 2.

(WARNING: this could get very looonnngggg lol)

Out of all those brothers and sisters, 1 is my full brother. 3 are my step-brothers. 1 is my half. All 3 sisters are half sisters. I have NEVER thought of my family like that. They are all equally my brothers and sisters. My dad now adopted me when my mum married him. He is my dad, he always has been, and he always will be. End of story. All of my brothers and sisters are my full brothers and full sisters, always have been, and always will be. But unfortunately, as time tears on, I feel that division in the family like I never have before. My3 older brothers who are my "step brothers" all have the same mum and my dad is their real dad. They now live away from home, but live on a semi-basis with their real mom. My dad spoils the crap out of my little sisters and always takes their sides...leaving me and by brother...who happens to be my full brother so to speak..

It's really hard for me to be saying this though, because I have never even thought of my family like that. I just hope everything turns out alright...

But anyways, I have a lot of dreams and aspirations it's almost ridiculous lol. Ever since I was a really little girl, well ever since I could remember really, I've wanted to be an egyptologist (someone who studies ancient egypt). I've always been obsessed with it. But as I grew older I learned of my native ancestry. So since I'm almost half, I really felt like I needed to do some research. I learnt of what was done to the natives and what's being done..or really what's NOT being done I guess I should say. I learned of the state of the reserves, of the abuse and alocoholism and from that point on I've felt a need to help them. I decided that I would be an aboriginal youth councillor/ teacher. I really hope to pursue that.

But I want to travel as well. I want to live all around the world. The way I see it, is that you have one life to live and it's a waste to spend it all in one place. I could be wrong, but that's just me. I want to go to Scotland. I want to maybe even go to school there for ancient civilizations like Egypt. I wanna live in Scotland too. I wanna visit Thailand, Japan, Australia, France, Spain, Greece, Italy, Egypt, England, Ireland, New Zealand...everywhere lol. I wanna experience as much of the world as I can.

Yea yea yea I know, "where are you going to get the money from" yea well i have no freaking clue. I'll find a way. Maybe I'll work for a bit, then take an entire year off just to travel. I really have no idea, I kinda just go with the flow u know. I don't really like having concrete plans or anything like that.

I wanna have a big family. I just loongg to fall in love and have kids lol.

As much as I want to grow up, I have issues with it. I don't want to....

well thats all for today lol

rock on

*magzz xxxx