Look at me.
No, really look at me.
What do my eyes say?
Do they show the pain?
The pain that's almost always there.
Just lurking around my simle.
One minute happy,
The next.....
I don't know how I feel
Angry, confused, isolated, deprived, sad,
shame, naive, stupid
DIRTY!
So many emotions.
Except for one,
forgiveness
what is that?
I will never forgive!
How can I?
I can't even forgive myself.