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EMOTIONAL BAGGAGE ~The Inner Monologue

"It's better to have loved and lost, then never to have loved at all." I don't argue these words used to comfort many, but where do you begin to rebuild the heart that lives mutilated and abused after the the loss? They say that the things we live through shape us into the people that we are. That experiences of life create individuals and we walk away from things wiser and more prepared for the future. All of which may well be true, but we also walk away with scars, bruises, and heavy loads of emotional baggage, with virtually no idea how to unload it.

I feel like I've done everything I was supposed to. After the last break up I took time to find myself. Learned how to love and truly appriciate myself. And was very mindful and cautious about entering into something new. Finally I've found something real, something true, a love that is reciprocated. But without warning I find myself slipping backwards into an old and familiar emotional hole. Reliving memories of rejection and pain. Feeling myself turn on the emotional autopilot and letting the hurt and pain from my past alter the joy I should be feeling today.

Carrying Baggage. The weight of my past pulling me back, slowing me down. We all come equipped with emotional baggage... fear of infidelity, sexual insecurity, mental and physical abuse, and the list goes on. Each of us fighting to move past the past and into a future thats lighter. My baggage may be designer, but still its heavy and hard to bear. Somehow I've got to learn to lessen the load. I'm exhausted.

Its time to unpack. To let go of the fears and doubts I've acquired. To accept the wounds and let my new love heal them. I cannot punish you for the heartbreak from the past. I cannot misinterpret your actions as a pattern of my own fate. I cannot continue to walk hand in hand while trying to balance all of my issues from the past.

I'm scared but I'm ready. Ready to start again. Ready to move on. And so very ready to unpack all of my EMOTIONAL BAGGAGE.

~J.Aquino Cheatem
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Posted by theinnermonologue on 2009-01-08 22:42:56 | Rating:

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TIM:
Emotional baggage is something we all deal with. We must look
past our fears and continue forward in order to succeed. We cannot
change the past but must learn from it. Good luck.
funnyman

Posted by funnyman57 on 2009-01-09 15:12:04

baggage or curiosity???

ur blog is realistic, subjective and somewhat graceful but i wonder -- do we as humans mistake the so called "baggage" that we say is holding us back as curiousity??? does it merely feel like its in the way because our logic is telling us it should be?... without the curiousity about how past feelings, actions, characteristics may affect us in the present and future maybe growth and improvement would never occur.

curious of how and why and when our past may meet with our present -- can we start forgetting about the weight and start thinking about the opportunity to grow and improve..

if we call it "baggage" we are merely allowing it to be nagative BUT being curious never hurt anyone....

Peace"

Posted by BsB on 2009-01-10 01:33:09

Nice piece , we all carry baggage ,but unpacking it is dangerous ,learn from it then put down the bag. carrying it is a burden and opening it subjects those around you now to the pain that is not there's.
live well, be happy ,be kind and learn every day of your life
Papabear

Posted by papabear on 2009-01-11 10:05:10

everyone has emotional baggage but we have to learn from and when it has to move on cause of and u think that because of ur emoitional baggage u hurting someone u love then that loved one know wats goning cause u don't always have to carry the load on ur own. have a good day
-theoneleftout13

Posted by theoneleftout13 on 2009-01-11 20:56:50

Wonderfully written and very insightful. Thank you for posting a very real and valid view. A view, I know quite well.

Posted by caliwildviolet on 2009-01-15 18:15:26

When faced with a decision or an action that I must react to, I ask myself...is what I'm about to say or do coming from fear...or is it coming from love?

Posted by FeivMinutes on 2009-01-15 19:57:41

Beautifully written. From not only the heart, but from the soul as well.

Posted by JCWinters on 2009-01-21 18:22:54

Yeah doesn't emotional baggage just suck? I read a book called The Emotion Code and it's all about releasing emotional baggage, recommend it. The EFT is a great technique for emotional healing. (Emotional Freedom Technique). I had a habit of hurtling through life and not even thinking about what specific emotions I was feeling and later they would resurface, repeated situations of same type of conflicts etc. It's probably obvious for alot of people but when I just labelled what I was feeling in relation to specific memories, I would ask myself if I was ready to let go of the specific feelings and I'd exhale and that's it the emotion would be cleared! The first step is to find which emotions and which memories are still holding a heavy tug on you, and then in a cyclical way you keep being mindful and clearing out the garbage. Some things come up again cos they werent cleared fully the first time. etc etc.

Posted by ZeeZu on 2009-01-25 07:15:49