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My name is Raquel and I hope this will be a frank, honest, sometimes insightful and open blog of my trials truths and tribulations while I am going through the process of RNY bypass surgery. I encourage all who stop by and read it to please give me your feedback whether it be positive, which I hope or negative. I am a female who is five-four and a half and I weigh two-hundred and forty-three point two pounds. I have never told anyone my entire weight aloud (what a way to come out huh?) even when I was thin and beautiful. Oh and believe me I am a beautiful "fat" not phat chick. And yes I get that dreaded, “ Gosh you are so beautiful in the face if only you would lose a couple of pounds.” If I hear that one more effing time I am gonna scream my damned head off! I just can not stand the body I have built around myself. I feel as though I am a prisoner. It is just not me. I am this curvy vivacious sex kitten and this extra one-hundred and ten pounds make me feel like that snufaluphagus character on Sesame Street not Kasumi or Brigitte Bardot. Food has become my enemy. I have come to the drastic decision to have surgery to make my stomach smaller to take in Less food. Fuck, I hardly eat as it is. I mean come on I binge sometimes but is only after weeks of depriving myself. I know this leads to an eating disorder but I do not have one and I know there is a river in Egypt called the Nile not Denial.
The true fact is that my weight is out of freaking control and I am having RNY surgery December 10 to control it. I have lived way to long with it out of control and now It is time for a change.
I want to be thinner. I deserve to be thinner and to like what I see in the damned mirror don't I?
I mean hell, I like the way I look I have never had a problem with my features. Man I have to give it to my parents they make good looking kids! Pop my collar... Therefore, that is it for my first entry. I will update when there are things going on with this process which in the next weeks there will be many things like tests and meetings.
Until next time,
Raquel
the incredibleshrinkingwoman
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Posted by theincredibleshrinkingwoman on 2007-11-17 03:36:56 | Rating: n/a | Views: 207
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