hey. :) you know you're looking at your life with a severe mortality perspective. i promise you that the end of high school isnt going to be the end of your life. school sucks. trust me. its common knowledge that girls mature faster than boys. so by the end of high school, you're effectively just a bunch of girls ready to go in the world and do something, surrounded by this neanderthal society, ruled by gorillas. of course there are exceptions. there are some guys who are alright and there are some girls who are just dumb enough to believe that their "royal" status in high school will last forever. its a stupid and fake world and you should know that THIS, whatever you're going through, THIS isn't life. life isn't doing stupid algebra that you'll never use and neither is it chasing after an idiot who wouldn't know how to recognize a good thing if it hit him in the face. all these girls that you're talking about. the ones who are the best at the things they do, make a list of em. keep it with you. try to find out what each of them are doing after just one year. they are just an unavoidable part of your life right now. but they'll be forgotten within the year.
i think you have more going on for you than you give yourself credit for. you're clearly aiming for college. which is good. college will be a totally new world. you'll meet so many different kinds of people, none bound by any silly rules. of course, like always, there will be exceptions. but the atmosphere in college is different. more professional and much closer to how real life works.
you have your music. music is something everyone should know how to play and enjoy. most people just wish for that. and you play the sax. which isn't really a pick-up-and-play kind of instrument. you might be able to teach a monkey how to whack some drums, but i guarantee you can't make him get a good tone on a sax! :P

trust me, the biggest favor you can do yourself, is going into college single and with an open mind. high school relationships almost NEVER work out. let yourself and your mind grow and then you'll be ready for a steady relationship.

and hey, i know you didn't really ask for any opinions, but the only point i wanted to establish is that you'll be fine. i can more than guarantee that. :)

i hope you have a nice day!

thank you. and i know how much your right and i know how much i need to remember it but it's hard to believe this is just a little bump in the road when so cliche-y it does seem like the end of the world. thanks for the comment =)