I always feel like the black sheep, wherever I go. I even feel like I don't belong in my family. I just feel that I am just this shy girl who has a very deep passion for music. I feel like nobody really knows the real me. The real me is deep inside, hiding from everyone around me.

At school I see people staring at me, maybe cause I'm not a size 0 like they are. I am just this normal, healthy girl trying to make the best of her life. I am this girl trying to find out what makes me happy. I never had a boyfriend before, and I think that maybe thats the only thing that might make me happy. My friends all around me is like, you don't need a boyfriend. But I feel like maybe I do, because my relationship with my dad isn't that great. And I wanna know that someone likes me for who I am. 

I am this girl who is trying to find herself in this cold, dark world. I don't cut my wrists because I really hate seeing a lot of blood. I love to listen to tons of emo music in my room, in the dark at night. I guess that makes me emo cause I cry myself to sleep at night, and I wake up with my eyes really red. I think that my mom thinks that I'm emo cause I wear black sweatshirts everyday, with jeans and a studed belt, and my converse shoes. I guess that I am this black sheep after all.