39946 Blog Feed: templar_knight 2008-07-17 19:07:13 templar_knight Your e-mail address 123515 2008-07-15 06:16:31 Have you ever wanted to go to see a "pro sport " of some sorts but were stopped from doing so because of the price of the tickets ?
How about if you wanted to take your kid(s) but didn't want to take out a second mortgage on your home to do it ?
I've been there.
When the Toronto Blue Jays entered the world of MLB, I went to about 15 games in each of the first 3 seasons .
Then I just stopped going.
The price of the tickets were just going through the roof and when you factor in the parking and munchies, since I took at least one of my sons and at times both, it was very easy to hit the $ 200.00 plus mark.
I kinda lost interest in going after that, not only baseball but football and hockey too.
The teams don't think of the ' working  guy " too much anymore. And in Toronto we had pro baseball, football, hockey, basketball and now soccer. So the average working guy even though he has lots of chooses as to where his " sporting dollars " go, he still can't go because of the cost.
So now when I need a sports fix, I go watch the minor league teams play and you know what ? I enjoy them just as much.
In these minor leagues, the kids are putting their heart and soul into the game, all for the love of the game.
They are all hoping to reach the " pros " someday and some will.
Their not worried about multi year contracts and getting paid a obscene amount of money. They play for the true love of the game .
And I don't have to sell the house to go to the games.
So I would urge you that the next time you feel like a sports fix, seek out your local minor league team. Go and support the " stars " of tomorrow because if you don't see them now, you won't be able to afford to see them if they turn pro other then on T.V.
so until I blog at you again,
take care of yourselves,
and each other.......templar
]]> 122512 2008-07-12 23:45:38 As promised.
I was blogging on another site. I had only just started to blog. I wasn't getting too many replies, so I shopped around and found " thoughts." That was in March of 08.
My first user name was " blogger_53 " and first picture was a big yellow happy face.
After a while I wanted to change it but thoughts couldn't transfer my account to another.
With my blogger _53 I was a senior member so really I'm at about 3200 posts.
I changed my user ID to templar knight because it matched a very special interest I have.
As I started all over again, I met many people through this and I consider them to be my friends.
I'd name them but I would most likely leave out one or two and since I hate to offend, I'm not going too.
Oh yes I've also me a couple of " spelling bee champs and grammar know it alls " and I've put them on my ignore list because I haven't got time for people who think their shit don't stink.
So 99.9% of the people I've connected with in here are just simply the greatest.
I think " thoughts " rounded up all the good people and put them into this site.
These people are always offering support, advice and prayer to those who may have a need.
I have enjoyed many a debate with a lots of people.
Some have got me to rethink my position on certain things while they all at least got me to look at another point of view.
I don't always agree but neither do they but I feel that the respect shown toward each other can conquer all.
It's not hard to get to 3000 when you enjoy the site as much as I do.
Some posts are short, some are longer.
Some of my blogs are meant to heighten levels of awareness.
One thing I was able to do here was blog a multi part series about my life. I had some very serious issues about a number of things and had no safe place to unload them. I did so in here.
What surprised me was all the positive feedback and support from these wonderful, often faceless people.
My only wish is I would like to meet them all, look into their eyes and thank them for that support. It meant the world to me.
In closing, I'd like to be around for another 3000 and I'll try hard to be but for now its important that you people, the ones that cheered me up when I was down, the ones who lent me their shoulder to cry on, those who gave me their very best advice they could for no other reason other then the fact that they cared, to all you people I thank you from the bottom of my heart.
You will never know just how much you've impacted on my life.
Its good to know there are people like you still in this world.
May your God bless you and your family and may you have all things good for the rest of your lives.
Now.....on to the next 3000.
so until I blog at you again,
take care of yourselves,
and each other. ]]> 119768 2008-07-07 14:40:07 Trust comes in many forms in a relationship. Cheating or rather not cheating is the most common I would venture to say.
But what about lying to ones mate ?
Often it's not the issue thats a concern but the lie itself.
Its even worst when the one being lied too has had a history of being lied too and finds it real hard to trust anyone again.
In my mind, next to cheating on your mate, lying is a relationship ender.
After all, if you can't trust your mate, do you really have a relationship ?
I'm not talking about those " little white lies " either.
Two things are important for a healthy relationship, one is loyalty and the other is trust. If one or both are not present, it will be just a matter of time before the relationship crashes to the ground.
Trust is also a good " tool " to gage just how much one feels about their mate.
You can't be telling your mate about how much you love them if your lying to them can you ?
So if you want your relationship to be strong, don't cheat and do not ever lie.
That is of course if you really care about your mate in the first place.
so....until I blog at you again,
take care of yourselves,
and each other........templar
]]> 118655 2008-07-04 20:45:15 Its the little things that mean the most to me.
As some may know, my lady and I have been away for a week in Ottawa.
Her mother lives just over the bridge in Quebec so we stayed there.
It was a great holiday and we did everything we wanted to do, visited everyone that we wanted and still had time for some unplanned stuff.
The highlight for me was the dinner Thursday night.
Every other time we have gone, we have always had our dinner but there was always one or two people missing.
This time my ladies mother was there as well as her three children. That was a first but it was just great.
Nobody knows how much time we have left so events like this mean so much as we get older because one never knows.
We've had bigger dinner gatherings but one with just the kids and mom seemed to be so hard to arrange.
My lady I'm sure was touched with the fact that they were all there. And that meant the world to me.
The kids have their own friends and interests but their mom is their mom. And they sure made her feel good at dinner.
Yes, its the little things that mean alot to me even if they are for my lady.

]]> 114807 2008-06-26 09:37:06 As reported today, 27 people ranging in ages from 19 to 68 were arrested and charged with belonging to a child porn ring in Quebec, Ontario.
The accused were to have had over 1 million pictures on the INTERNET .
All the children involved had not reached  puberty yet and one was as young as just " A FEW MONTHS OLD ."
So now I ask you , just what the hell do you think is a fair punishment for these people if they are convicted ?
Some jail time, with some counseling thrown in as well ?
My God people, these were children, our children of our future.
Surely your human emotion cries out for more then a " slap on the wrist " form of punishment.
I get real tired of hearing all the moral reasons why we can't take a life.
Reasons like " its against God's law " or " its makes us no better then them " or " what would that solve?"
Tell you want. I take all the blood off your hands.
I'll decide the punishment AND carry it out.
You can continue to go about your business and pretend its not going on.
Wake up people, smell the coffee.
Who is going to protect our children, YOUR children ?
Who was there to protect that child just a few months old ?
Look around you, everywhere you look you'll see children.
Some maybe yours or your friends.
Who's looking out for them ?
Just be glad it wasn't one of them.......this time.
As I said, leave it all to me, I'll take all the " heat " but one thing will be certain.
There will be 27 less child sex abusers in the world by the time I'm done.
Hold your child real close to you tonight, there are those that are doing a real lousy job protecting them.
I 'm not trying to offend anyone or their beliefs but next time this happens, try throwing your bible at them, that will make them stop I'm certain.
And save the " sick " argument as well.
I'm also sick. Sick and tired of hearing about this happening to our young.
Perhaps, some day, you will be too.
until I blog at you again,
take care of yourselves and your children,
and each other....templar...  ]]> 112841 2008-06-22 14:40:30 Hey does anyone here want to hear all about the last time I made love with my lady ?
I could go into great detail, describe every kiss, every touch, every move.
Well relax, it's not going to happen.
To me things like that are personal in nature and are not meant to be shared with everyone that has a puter screen.
I do defend peoples right to post what they want but for the life of me I just don't see the purpose of telling everyone about my sex life.
So now I wonder why others do it ?
Am guessing since some people haven't put a age in their profiles, it might be young people ( teenagers or younger) who are looking for some sort of " shock valve " from the older folks.
It could also be that by " telling all " could they be " shopping around "?
I guess others think its really kool to tell the world who they " bonked " and all the details.
I even bet the bonking that some say happened really didn't happen at all but it was posted to see what the comments would be.
Oh well, I guess thats the way it is these days for some, " put it all out there ".
Their life is a open book, no secrets.
Well that is their right but in my case, with something so special as being intimate with someone, I'll just put that book back on the shelf.
so until I blog at you again,
take care of yourselves,
and each other......templar

]]> 110599 2008-06-17 16:41:28 Templar Island where peace reins supreme.
Where the beaches have warm white sand. Where the water is always warm .
You can swim there day and night. Also you can go  deep sea fishing, diving in among the ship wreaks.
Each visitor has their own chalet with everything you can want.
No drugs are allow on Templar Island unless its for medical conditions.
Smoking pot is allowed but you have to bring it with you because we don't grow it there.
You can have any type of food you want and plenty of it.
Drinking is of course allowed and your glass is never empty.
Drink your fill just so ,long as your a " happy drinker ". If your not....goodbye.
As I said in the threads its by my invite only and my lady and I will not put up with anything that prevents people from relaxing and being at peace.
Rule of thumb " be good or be gone asap ".
So reserve your place now.
Space is limited and going fast.
so until I blog at you again,
take care of yourselves,
and each other......templar ]]> 110287 2008-06-17 01:45:17 Well the last couple of days leading up to fathers day were hard and of course the day itself but I got through it thanks to some great support from my lady and some great words from a lot of you people.
One thing that just blew me away was a call I got from my ladies daughter.
She called me from Ottawa to wish me a " happy fathers day "
That kinda blew me away.
She's a fine young lady, out in the world and she took the time to call. The fact that she has a relationship with her " real " dad made it all the more special.
So to all those that made a comment, sent a message or email, I thank you very much.
Your words are tattooed in my heart forever.
so until I blog at you again,
take care of yourselves,
and each other......templar ]]> 109316 2008-06-14 18:58:17 Fathers Day, great day for me to stay in bed, hide from it all.
Since I have no father and since my three sons have long stopped considering me theirs, there is no point for me to try to enjoy the day.
Everywhere I would go I'd see sons and daughters doing things with their dads.
I would be so in envy of them and after awhile that envy would turn to hurt and lastly anger.
I wouldn't want to be around anyone for fear of ruining the day for them but any " happy " I had wouldn't be real or heartfelt
So the best place for me is my room, catching up on my sleep or reading and watching t.v.
But please understand I'm happy for all the other dads out there and truly hope your day is a very special one.
I hope your children make it so special for you that you'll never forget the day.
As for me, I stopped being a father many years ago.
Yes, thats bitter but after years of heartbreak, tears and disappointment, thats all I have left.....bitterness.
so until I blog at you again,
take care of yourselves,
and each other......templar ]]> 106795 2008-06-09 00:01:01 Up here in Canada some of our athletes are having some concerns about the games in China.
There are some that don't feel we should go.
Others feel that this is their chance to " live their dream " and we should support it as best as we can.
Given the history of China, I for one do not feel that they should have been awarded the games is the first place.
Remember the tanks rolling into the " square ".
Remember the soldiers shooting at the students ?
Remember that one brave young man standing in front of the tanks path ?
Before anyone tries to tell me in never happened, there were far too many reporters and cameramen there for all of them to get it wrong.
Oh, there is no doubt China will put on a good show.
They don't dare not too.
They wouldn't want to lose " face " in front of the world.
But what happens after when everyone goes home ?
My fear is it will  return to the " same old, same old ".
Those on the IOC that voted for China to get the games should all be removed.
That countries history on human rights abuses is nothing short of disgusting. And they get awarded the games ? Something is wrong with that picture.
The athletes should never be put into the position of having to weight the options of either going to compete and not.
The IOC put many of them in that position and shame on them for doing it.
So I guess time will tell won't it ?
I intend to watch the games and cheer for my countries athletes.
But also, deep down, I'll worry.
Once the " eyes " of the world are no longer focused on China, what will happen ?
The " games " won't make that country all of a sudden start to respect human rights.
And if there is anyone out there that thinks it will, boy you have to be the most gullible person in the world.
so until I blog at you again,
take care of yourselves,
and each other......templar

]]> 103938 2008-06-01 22:13:37 Remember when gas was real cheap.......
Remember when instead of fridges we had ice boxes..........
Remember when movies were just a quarter to get in..........
Remember for that quarter you got to see at least two full length movies plus either a cartoon or a part of Batman or Superman.........
Remember ladies wore dress down to their ankles.........
Remember when guys pants were always turned up down at the cuffs.......
Remember when every guy had a black comb in their back pocket.......
Remember when young people in love would sit for hours on the front steps........
Remember it was ok to be a " boy scout or girl guide ".........
Remember when every Sunday after church there was the " family dinner " that all had to attend.........
Remember when that on Sundays, very few ,if any stores were open......
Remember when you could listen to music and actually hear the words over the music..........
Remember when that when a guy gave girl his pin,that was as good as a ring.........
Remember when they had " Sadie Hawkins Dances " at the high schools and the girls asked the guys to go..........
Remember when twice a month the high schools would have " sock hops .......
Remember when the only drugs were store bought......
until I blog at you again,
take care of yourselves,
and each other......templar ]]> 103369 2008-05-31 08:38:22 All work and no play makes a " knight " bored and worn out.
I am in real need of a holiday and so is my lady.
I haven't had a week off since 2006, been working part time till now then back at full time.
My lady and I have had trips to visit her family in Ottawa but they have been long weekend trips.
Because of the recent move, we didn't go to Ottawa in May. Too much too do before and after our move, different things to buy and we just ran out of time , money and " steam ."
But things are slowly coming around and we can see the forest for the tress now.
We are planning a to be in Ottawa for the first week in July. Canada Day ( July 1 ) will be spent on Capital Hill being one of the thousands of people honoring Canada's birthday.
We will of course be spending lots of time with her mom and kids. We will be staying at her mom's so it will be a fairly cheap trip but of course we will be buying food even though we'll get a argument I'm sure from her mom. Really looking forward to that trip.
Through the summer there will be day trips of course and perhaps a one or two overnites as well.
Down time is something I know we both need. Time away together just relaxing, doing things at our own pace and not really worrying about the time.
We are also planning ahead to the summer of 2009.
We plan on taking a trip to the islands but not sure which one yet.
So we have to get our passports in order.
So even though at times I feel just plain worn out, there are brighter days ahead.
Sooooooo'
until I blog at you again,
take care of yourselves,
and each other........templar

]]> 102062 2008-05-28 04:43:53 Here it is, 4.30 am and I have to go out in a couple of hours. I went to bed early, but woke up in a cold sweat, worried sick and feeling very fearful.
I know I can beat this thing but I never had a " foe " this tough before.
It will take all my strength and all my will power to " topple " this thing.
Yes, I guess I will need all the support I can get as well.
Thats the troublesome part.
Our lives are just getting real good with each other.
We have a really nice new apartment, we both joined a health club.
I've gone back to working full time hours so we can get the little things we want. So its all been good till this.
Will she be able to cope ?
Will she be able to handle my down days when I get so frustrated ?
Will she be able to handle my mood swings? ( she does that enough now )
The doctor said I was one pill away from insulin and two pills away from having to get my blood cleaned every couple of days.
I really don't think I can deal with that.
I know many people do but I don't think I could ever be counted as one of them. Nor do I have any wish to subject my good, sweet lady to that either.
So battle I must, only this time its a battle that deep down I know I could lose.
I never had that before. Every battle I 've fought, there was never any doubt that I would win. This time I'm not so sure.
So its time that this " knight " rode off again to battle.
Only difference is this time, I might not be coming back, not the way I left or if its really bad, not at all.
until I blog at you again,
take care of yourselves,
and each other......templar
]]> 101933 2008-05-27 20:59:38 Tonight I went to the doctor.
My lady was also there as per the request of the doctor.
The news was not what I had hoped for and left me somewhat upset.
All those years of riding off into battle or rescuing damsel's in distress has caught up to me it seems.
My blood pressure is way too high, my sugar level is way too high and I'm one step away from having to take insulin.
I can reverse it with some really severe lifestyle changes but I'm afraid that at my age it could be too little too late.
My thoughts now turn to my lady.
I can't see myself being a burden to her if things go really bad for me.
As I write this all sorts of things are running through my mind, none of them are very good.
To be honest, I don't know why I'm telling you all this other then to get if off my chest.
I swore one day that I WOULD NEVER go on insulin.
Now I'm so close that I can almost feel the needle prick.
So I guess this just one more battle I must fight.
More then that, I must win.
until I blog at you again,
take care of yourselves,
and each other.......templar ]]> 100825 2008-05-24 23:07:37 As much as I enjoy the long weekends, I get worried about how many lives will be lost on our highways.
People traveling to their cottages or to visit friends.  Great weekend things to do but the cost could be high.
People going a little too fast to get to where they want to be, speeding, driving recklessly. Some driving half asleep.
Last weekend, our Victoria Day long weekend, a 17 year old was pulled over after being clocked going 2 k's short of three times the posted speed.
He had " daddies " car.
Of course he was charged, the car was impounded under the new " street racing law " but what if he would have hit somebody ?
Its hard not to "paint " all teenagers with the same brush but perhaps raising the driving age would help.
I know its not always the teens that are guilty but it happens enough.
Start charging cell phone users too.
In Ontario there is no such law but in two other provinces, it is against the law to drive and using a cell phone unless its a " hands free set".
There are some scary people out there on the roads these days and on the long weekends there seems to be that many more.
We must do something to curtail the death on our highways. Getting the speeders, cell phone users, and reckless drivers would be a great start.
so until I blog at you again,
take care of yourselves,
and each other.......templar

]]> 100753 2008-05-24 21:16:27 Thanks to you, I grew up in a time of peace.World war 2 was just ending and the troops were home.
Korea had just started and by no means no important,it wasn't on a wide scale as the others were.
Thanks to you I can vote for who I want and become whatever I choose to be.
Thanks to you I live in a free country that I wouldn't have  if it wasn`t for you.
Thanks to you, my country Canada enjoys a great friendship with the USA and I hope that it will last forever.
On this your Memorial Day weekend, please be aware that even though our day of Remembrance is NOV.11, this proud Canadian will take time and reflect on the sacrifices made by the US troops during the war.
I can this, `` thanks to you.``
until I blog at you again,
take care of yourselves,
and each other.......templar ]]> 100478 2008-05-23 22:53:32 I walk along the rows of crosses.
There must be thousands.
I don't know any of them but I love them dearly.
They gave all they had for me.
They gave all.
Names on crosses, some young,some old.
Many just " boys ".
They answered the call.
Not really knowing what war was all about.
They never questioned their " calling ".
For some it was duty, for others is was pride.
They knew the risks, but remained unfazed.
They were our countries best.
There were our countries bravest.
Now they are our countries dead.
Its time now to do our part.
Let them know they are not forgotten.
They are looking down at us from above.
Keep the faith with our brave dead.
Show them their death was not in vain.
" Least We Forget " Rest In Peace. ]]> 99976 2008-05-22 14:59:42 I was looking at some pictures in the " threads" just now.Some beautiful children and grandchildren.
The parents and grandparents must be very proud.
But I find it hard looking at times because of my situation.
Being a dad to three sons and a grandfather to two ( that I know about).
By no means is this sours grapes to those that have, its just its hard knowing I also have but can never post my pictures for all to see.
I'm a lucky guy in a few areas and I'm truly thankful but the one thing that is missing is the one thing I find as I get older that I need the most.
Everyone says " they'll come around". Well I'll never see it.
The river is too deep and the valley too wide.
I'll never forget cause I'm a dad. But they have forgotten me for the same reason.
Oh well, nothing I can do about it other then hope that the pain gets more and more bearable.
Sorry this has been such a " downer" but even knights have their moments.
till I blog at you again,
take care of yourselves,
and each other......templar
]]> 98757 2008-05-19 21:32:45 Every day I listen to the news and read the paper.
Hoping to find good news on the front pages or as the " lead off "story on the nightly.
But I should know better, good doesn't sell.
I'm starting to wonder if people just can't handle "good ".
When was the last time the evening news lead off story was full of good news ? When was the last time the front page of your paper had a good news story on it ?
I bet most of you can't remember cause I can't.
I listen to the radio as I drive to my p/t job in the mornings. Most days I'm upset by the time I get there.
At some point during the day, I'll get a paper and the result is the same.
Perhaps T.V. and newspapers should put all the good news on the front pages or at the beginning of the telecasts so people would feel good for a change.
They could put all the bad crap in the back pages or in the second hour of the news.
Would people still watch the news or buy the paper ?
I bet they wouldn't.
Even though we whine, bitch, complain about all the bad things going on in the world, most of us would still need our " fix " of bad to get through the day.
Well I guess that stuff gives us something to whine, bitch, or complain about.
So I guess, it does serve a purpose after all.
until I blog at you again,
take care of yourselves,
and each other.......templar. ]]> 98166 2008-05-18 10:23:59 Today is my ladies birthday.
So this is for her.
This is our third year being together and I'm wondering what took you so long to come into my life ?
The roads we both traveled to get to this place were filled with too much sadness for both of us. But now we are together and we be till the end of our time.
My life is finally complete and I'm at peace and in love.
The love I have for you is endless.
Your my world and my life.
So today, on your birthday, be it known to you and to all those reading this, that I profess my love to you.
We have many roads still to travel and travel them we will. With you by my side those roads are made a lot less bumpy.
Thank you for loving me as you do but more importantly, thank you for allowing me to love you as I do.
Once again, HAPPY BIRTHDAY, my lady, my life.

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