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ll i've been faced with some of the worse anticipation i've ever experienced in my life. for the last week i've been trying to figure out if my woman is pregnant or not. i know she wants a child more than anything and i want to give her one. but i also know neither 1 of us is ready. no matter what she says i KNOW she's not ready for one. one minute she wants it and will be so happy, but not too long after she starts expressing her concerns about "what will we do?" i think she gets so caught up in being pregnant that she leaves the realities out of the equation. the actual birth, her inability to work during the end of the pregnancy, the late nights being up with the baby, the constant money that is going to HAVE to be spent on our child and everything that comes along and after that. i'm sure she knows it but when she talks about everything none of that is ever expressed. i'm used to doing what it takes with a child being i've helped raise God-knows how many children including the majority of 21 nieces n nephews. i'm sure she knows what she'd be doing but its just a lot to think about right now. i've moved to a totally different state and havent found consistent work yet. i have no stable money right now and a lot of the time i feel like less of a man because of it. i keep that to myself because i dont want nobody worrying about me. i want a baby just like she does. but i have to know my pockets can handle it. i'm not worrying about anything else but the financial stability that i know i ahve to have to take care of a child. i want no more than to give her what she wants but i am a realist and i have to cover EVERY SINGLE ANGLE. its just so much to deal with not only with my concerns but hers. i need a good job and more than likely 2 jobs. we have a business that we're running with ytb that we need to get moving once and for all on a consistent basis. then her emotions are all about this pregnancy "scare" and what has to be done. well monday can't get here soon enough because i need to know once and for all whether she is or she isnt so i know what i have to do.
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Posted by teekillinem on 2008-04-17 14:39:33 | Rating: | Views: 94
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Hang in there Tee..your a smart guy...keep everything in perspective as you have been. You and your girl (and baby if applies) are in my thoughts. Good luck on the job hunt:) Take care:)
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Posted by pitapie50
on 2008-04-17 14:52:39
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u should just remind her of how bad it will hurt when giving birth
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Posted by payda
on 2008-04-18 10:41:19
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