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so this is why my marriage is so very frustrating...had you asked me about a week ago how I felt about my husband I would have said used and betrayed...but the past few days he has treated me like gold. As far as I can tell he hasn't done anything that he thinks he would be in trouble for or anything like that, just a swift change of heart. it's very frustrating because even though I know that my feelings are fickle, I keep getting thrown into different relationships every few days! One day I'll be going along just fine, the next day I've done something, or someone else has done something, or he is just in a funky mood...and I'm ignored or yelled at or being having things demanded of me. It's all or nothing with him, hot or cold. it's so frustrating.
I'm trying hard to get some balance in the house before I go back to school, but I don't think it's going to happen. I really want to finish school, if nothing else than to just say I finished somthing for once in my life.
I still hate my job, it sucks just as much as the last time that I worked there, but I'm trying to stay positive, and I mean genuinely positive, not that in-your-face-obviously-high-or-faking happy. I really need to stick it out here for my family, and I also need to have my heart and mind in order for my family, otherwise I will react to situations in ways that I shouldn't.
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Posted by teckisha on 2008-01-30 23:30:08 | Rating: | Views: 72
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