Ok, so stuff has really been changing. 
My husband really sucked it up at Thanksgiving and decided to talk to my parents by himself to kind of smooth things out.  I don't really know how it all will work out.  but I'm not worried. 
My sister is moving out which is a really good thing, I'm not sick of her or anything.  Like I've said before my family and I are very close so I've really enjoyed the company.  She got an apartment nearby, that's gonna be cool it's been about 5 years since I've had family living less than an hour away.  At least someone to have coffee with. 
My brother in law is moving in with us.  That may put a strain on our marriage.  but I know that we will somehow muddle through.  Mikey, (the brother) is 15 and dealing with some serious issues when it comes to females in authority positions.  I don't know if I can make a difference, I'm going to try.  I've only got small kids...I've never been a parent to a teenager.  I'm struggling to find some common ground and also maintain the balance of friendly and firm.  to be honest, I have no clue what I'm doing. 
I'm so proud of my hubby...he graduated this past weekend.  I worry about his heart.  He gets so frustrated with his job and finacial situation that he is losing sight of what he has really accomplished! He has come so far in his life.  people from his past really did expect him to fail in everything he attempted-but his is beating the statistics. 
There are other things that I worry about though.  I worry for his mind-He floods it with things that will only break him down.  I've really been thinking about getting one of those complaint bracelets to see how long he would last.  he is an avid complainer! 
I feel so alone in my faith.  I want to grow with my hubby, and get to know the lord better with him at my side.  I feel alot like he laughs at me-he says  "I just don't eat, sleep, and poop God like you do"  I don't think that I'm a fanatic-but I'm serious when it comes to getting the most out of my relationship with God.  He doesn't share that and it's not only frustrating but I really feel like I'm back in stupid highschool getting made fun of for being a prude. 
I've got a job interveiw tommorrow.  I have been doing in home daycare...but there just isn't any stability in that.  I really hope that I can find a daycare for my own children.  I should be able to get the job.  I've worked there before-and I was one of their better reps (gotta love that customer service) 
any hoo---I hear kids crying- I'll try to blog more later!