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Almost better!

Finally after 2 freakin weeks i am almost feeling 100%. Might help that i've actually been getting some sleep lately.

Valentine's passed almost quietly. I was invited to a prime rib supper by a friend, and i enjoyed myself immensely. Which was a bit surprising, but i think the light flirting going on helped out some. I ended up cooking about half the supper, and the others that came to it made it nicer.   I was thanked alot for the great awesome supper, which was nice. The cooking was fun as i get to do it for a group so rarely these days. I love cooking, just not for one or 2.   I made 24 yorkshire pudding and there was 3 left, not bad when there was 5 people there for supper.   The end of the night was probably the highlight of the day for me though.

The fifth of the party was someone who called at 5pm, and was invited over. She came half in the bag and was full tilt in the bag by the time she left. She's what is referred to as a bible thumper. I got into a nice arguement with her, my views apparently are the work of the devil even though i'm RC. At one point i referred to people as being computers, which totally pissed her off, and the pissier she got, the louder she got.

All but her left about 9pm. Apparently i'm not to be trusted with a man so she decided to take it upon herself to be our chaperone. But the beer ran out at 9:45, so she left at 10pm. Or so we thought.   Sitting on the couch, talking to my friend about the night in general and then her, and he says and i quote "she's nuts", we hear a knock at the door. Its her! She didn't leave, she stood outside the door and eavesdropped to see if she's hear any "sinning" going on once she had left! It was hilarious actually. Maybe you just had to be there. After a small drunken rant she really left, and then called about 10 mins later once she got home, telling my friend how he can't sleep with me, as i'm a married woman etc etc etc.   For someone who doesn't even know me, i thought it a bit much. (i think we had met once before about a year before) She doesn't/didn't even know if we were sleeping together, she didn't ask me, she asked him, who kindly told her if she wanted to know the nature of our relationship to ask me about it, but of course she didn't. Hung up even when he passed the phone to me.   I maybe stayed an hour more, just vegging in front of the tv and chatting.
He walked me to my car door when i was leaving and leant forward to give me a quick peck. That was ok with me, as thats just the usual goodbye with him.

Then outta no where, he grabbed me and really gave me a kiss, i mean full out yumminess kiss. Totally unexpected! I'm not even sure i kissed him back it was just so.... ! It was so nice though, i even got butterflies in my tummy, which i totally was unprepared for. I didn't expect them at this stage of the game in any event. I'm still not sure what to make of it. I even spent the night there the other day, and yet in all the 12? 16? 20?hrs i was there, not even so much as a kiss passed between us. It was a friendly night, i brought over a movie, we curled up on the couch separately, and got tired so stayed the night. I don't know my feelings. I know i don't want to rush into anything, but i also don't want to hold myself back from something that might be amazing.
I guess only time will tell, we have a dinner date for wed night, so we shall see how things go. I do know for the time being though, the bio clock has stopped ticking so hard, which is good, because i don't want that to color my judgement on anything thats yet to come.    I got 2 long weekends coming up though as i've put in a fair amount of time lately, and i know the thurs night or 2 i might end up over there for the night, with expectationships on both of our parts, or at least its how i feel now.   Time will tell.

I'm adoring work at any rate. I love Fred rogers that i work with, not his name but we get along so well and he reminds me of Mr Rogers. Even though he's younger than me. I'm getting ticked with one or 2, but soon enough it's either shape up or ship out.   So life is going great for the moment ! My kid got her placement at the funeral home so all is well with her too. Just have to take her shoe shopping and she'll be done with her outfit for "work/co-op".   Off to have a long hot bath, because i need to relax! So g'night til next we meet....