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Life is just so full of surprises. And life is so strange and weird as well.
I've come to learn the term overly obsessed far too well the last few weeks. I consider myself a pretty honest person, i mean i don't lie about anything, unless its to say your ass don't look fat in that dress and even thats a stretch for me to lie about. I just don't see the point. At most i'd go so far as to not correct you if you think i had an orgasm, because why say i didn't when it was still mutally enjoyed?
So anyways, things with Him are almost back to normal. As they were, before the whole lets try this thing out started. It was a rough few weeks, and their about over. I pretty much said, this is me, take it or leave it, i'm not changing myself for you or anyone. He made his decision and amazing as it was, i wouldn't believe it if i didn't still have the message on my cell.... he called me the other day to apologize for how he's treated me in the last month or so. I NEVER thought i'd ever hear those words from him. I think the fact when the chips were down, i was the only one he could call and count on. That simply blew him away. That after all this shit, i was still there, as a friend should be. We're just not meant to be more, we can deal with that.
Which kinda leads me to the next part of my weird fucked up life. Another guy friend of mine, whom i've known for years (8ish?) called me the other night wanting to talk..... i haven't heard from him in about a month or so, we usually just hook up on the fly a few times a year to coffee and chat. This is the guy that when he's single, i'm not and vice versa. Its never really been more of a passing thought, never one of those "i've GOT to do this one day!" Anyhow, to make a long story short, as we were out, HE tried calling me at home and was told i was out for coffee with C, well so of course the cell rings and he's had a few drinks and i'm out getting fucked yet again. Its kinda amazing how even though there's been 3 men in 6-7 years, i'm a HUGE slut, but whatever. We've established that what i say doesn't matter, so when he said "guess your getting laid tonight" i figured if i'm getting blamed for it, why not fucking do it for once. So i said sure, might as well right. He said fine and hung up. So as the topic of sex always comes up at some point or another with me and C, this night of all nights, i said point blank, wanna?
Haha i think he thought i was kidding and i sort of was, but wasn't. Seriously, why the fuck not, i'm single, have fun! So we went and found a little secluded piece of the world and GOT IT ON. or off as the case maybe...
Anyways, i wasn't really into it all the much before anything happened... but damn, he had me at the first kiss.
He's this rough and rugged kinda guy, very... blue collar i guess? His lips were so soft, as was his stubble, it was... not weird, it was.... different. I guess i never seriously thought about him this way, ever. So surprised, maybe a bit shocked, pleasantly so. Kind of makes me wonder what would of happened if we hooked up all those years ago. Well even now, i'm not expecting anything. After that night i knew he was going away for a day or 2, so was surprised he called me up sun night. We went cruising for a bit just to chat.... ended up at the corner store buying some *cough* and got it on again, its like we just couldn't help ourselves. So i ended up getting home about 3 am, and him walking me to the door.... told him he's welcome to come over tomorrow.....
Well he came... god, i don't know why i'm so into it. He's so sweet and darling and so Ahhhh. I could so easily fall, but for now its just fun. Which is really what i need. I'm not into serious. I'm all about the fun now. I'm going to enjoy the ride. I'm so glad i did do it. Wow, tonight.... i'll sleep so well now.
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Posted by swordmaiden on 2008-04-21 20:13:04 | Rating: | Views: 61
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