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ok so this is my first blog but i hope it helps me get answers because im in desperate need of someone, anyone to show me guidance....
i had a dream last night and it wasnt a normal dream its hard to explain but i was in a very light sleep i was almost concouse but not in control.
My dream was strange like nothing id ever felt or dreamed of befour it was like i was in control....normaly it just happens and u cant do much about u cant dirrect ur dream but this felt more like a memory like i couldnt change anything but i was in control of myself i could only control myself and i was doing just that...it was like i living the dream rather than dreaming it or i was thinking it but subconcounsly and had no way of stopping it.
I know im terrible at explaing it but who ever reads it try and understand...
ok my dream.......................i was in the car with my dad going somewere the road we were on was familer and i was driving and he asked me if i got something (not sure wat i think it might of been a note) but he asked if i got it off a freind and i said no and for some reason he went crazy like not violant but just kept yelling and having a go at me. i could feel the words he was saying without knowing wat he was saying but it felt like it was realy happening..anyway after he kept yelling for yonks i just snapped and pulled the car over and got out and ran, no were in particular but i just ran as hard as i could and i was crying (something i dont normaly do).
But i was running and it felt like everything that was bothering me had just got to much and was exploding at that moment, it was like i just couldnt handle it anymore and i needed to get away.
Everything that was on my mind, small, big, insagnificant anything was pounding in my brain like a million splinters getting infected.
I was hurting so bad but had no logic in discribing how or why. anyway i ran and the dream sort of jumped and i was in a cubby house and i was a mess i was crying and ranting to myself and was lossing control and i was drinking (thats strange im not much of a drinker) but it felt like the alchohol was a way of making some of the pain go away.
Then my perants found me both my mum and dad and they werent as most perants would be like, they were hurting coz there son was lossing it but they were saying things like "ur off the tracks" "ur lossing control" but they werent saying anything to make it better it was like they didnt see or care about wat i was feeling and they only yelled at me because im lossing control and the fact that i didnt get that letter or wat ever it was off my freind.
It felt like a million voices in my head useing anyway to insult me and bring me down.....and it was working.
So i ran again i just bolted but i had my bag on and it was heavy and i couldnt run fast because of it but for some reason i would put it down it was like it had something inside i couldnt loss....so i was running and my dad chased me and all of a sudden we were at another familer road at a buisy intersection and i was running and i could hear my dad chasing me and yelling and everything in my head was just getting worse and i saw the lights turn green and i ran as hard as i could to the oncomeing traffic and i was trying to kill myself i wanted to get run over, but my dad caught me and pulled me bak just in time and held me for a few second then i pulled away and fell on the ground and just screamed at the top of my lungs and cried....and then i woke up instantly.......
Normaly i wouldnt pay any attension
to a dream even one like that but this wasnt normal this was very different...the relivant topics to my life atm were the cause of my pain in my dream, but the main weired thing was...it felt so real!!!...like nothing id ever felt id never been so emotional about anything ever befour it felt like it was happening like i truely was feeling that pain but i couldnt change it or hide from it or defeat it.
Another thing is everything was clear like i new exacly were i was wat time of the day i remember the faces (specificly my perants) i can remember exacly wat car i was driving (my dads exact car) i know the driks i was drinking (there my favourt)...everything was real and relivant nothing was make believe or "just a dream" this felt real and i wasnt completly unconcouse sleeping i could feel i was alert but couldnt actualy wake up.......................................ANYONE who has an opinion or can say anything about my dream or anything i have said or have questions please speak...help me find the answers i need please..
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Posted by swi0002 on 2008-01-23 07:18:06 | Rating: | Views: 155
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okay, well I'm not a dream expert or anything but I do have a dream dictionary and I recommend that if you have any more dreams like this you get one too. You can order one on line or from your local book store. The book starts out saying "A dram in a mirror revealing your deepest self." Here's what my dictionary says about your dream. It's vague you will have to make sense of it yourself...
You are having communication problems either with your father or with the friend you were to get the letter from. There is something you want to talk to your dad about but you believe he will react the way he did in your dream. You are afraid of how he will react and in turn your mom. So you run from the situation knowing all along that they will catch up to you and although they may not listen to what you say, they will understand. Your drinking says that you are trying to absorb something and because you were drinking alcohol it says that you are having issues with a loss of control over yourself. Your crying says you are in touch with your emotions and you know you have more on your mind than you can bare right now. Trying to run into the traffic says you currently lack pleasure in your life. Your dad being there at the end says that he will still be there for you, he will still be your security, still accept you, still take you in. Your dream is trying to tell you what you already know, you have too much on your mind right now, things need to come out and be said, that your parents will always accept you no matter how much you think you are failing yourself or them and that you need to take time for yourself and seek activities you enjoy to help you relax.
By the way to avoid vivid dreams like this don't eat right before going to bed it screws with your head.
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Posted by Charleigh
on 2008-01-23 14:34:49
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Well, to start you were lucid dreaming. It's pretty cool that you can do that, because I've tried.
Dream dictionaries aren't always the best way to interpret dreams. It's not always wrong, but it's better to find someone who knows a lot about them, and can have you there to ask specific questions.
Also, it has nothing to do with what food you eat. Dreaming is simply your Ego taking a step back and letting your Id go nuts - telling you exactly what your unconscious wants/feels.
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Posted by stefbakes
on 2008-01-24 17:18:29
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You must have alot on your mind!
Thinkin about ur friends instead of family!
If u have a dream where u cant move, it isnt a dream it's really happening!!
it mean's that you've been doing bad thing's lately. . .!!
You know it's bad but u forget all about that, and just go along with it!!
Dont both because it's goin to wreck your oppitunity's you've planed for the future!!
So if that happends think of something
you think that's keeping you from doin someting good, and quite that thing you've been doin
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Posted by dream_teller
on 2008-04-03 12:26:59
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