I have been gone for a bit now.  I had a really rough holiday.  My grandfather passed away right before Christmas.  He was my best friend and life hasn't been the same since he has moved on.  I went home rather quickly to help my father, it was so strange being there without him.  I find myself picking up the phone to tell him a joke I heard or even tell him about what is going on in life.  I become extreamly disabpointed when he doesn't pick up.  As silly as that sounds, since I know that he will not be on the other end, I still feel that way.  It was nice to get home to my father and be there for him.  I also got to see my brother who I miss so much.  So even though I went home on bad circumstances I still had some happiness as I got to see my family.

When I returned Eric was there with my roomate to pick me up from the bus station!!!!!!  I was happy to see my little family back here in Havelock.  I missed them all so much, and was excited to get home.  Since I have been home Eric and I have taken many steps to making our relationship long term.  He broke up with his girlfriend to be with me.  He said that while he was home that all he could think of was me.  He told me that there was a time when he thought that maybe he would come to Topeka to see me. But with everything that he knew was going on with me decided that I should just be with my family.  But when I got home he wanted me to be with just him.  Since that day, New Years Day, we have decided to get married. 

So even with a great loss I have manage to let love and happiness back into my life.  I know deep down in my heart that my Grandfather is up there leading us in the direction of happiness.