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Dear ___,
All of my other hypothetical letters have been full of hate and sadness. I want to let you know how much you changed my life for the better. Let's see if I can do you justice. I'll go in chronological order because it makes sense that way.
You taught me that I can be beautiful without trying. I don't need to wear makeup. I don't need to wear revealing clothes; some man will love me just the way I am. My bubbliness and kindness is enough.
You taught me what love is. Love is learning all the silly things together. Love is failing together, but helping each other learn to succeed. Love is holding hands and enjoying the afternoon sunshine. Love is better than what disney princesses get. Transcendental feeling.
You taught me how to kiss. Our first was not awkward as many are. We both enjoyed it, it was the very first for both of us. We kinda planned it, but were still nervous. I can still remember it vividly. You pulling me tight. Us searching for a rhythm we didn't know was supposed to exist. You smelled so good. We got good at kissing, you know. It is one of my favorite things. I kinda miss it, but I'll find someone new, I hope.
You taught me that men can respect women. You never pushed my boundaries. You asked my opinion.
You taught me that men can be romantic on their own. They can also forget little important things, and thus rely on their mommies… aka when you forgot that I had my wisdom teeth taken out and she brought me flowers and pudding.
You taught me that I can like my potential in-laws. I still talk to your mom, she is one of the best people in my life. She will forever be a role model. Please don't hurt her. She loves you. I am aware that your dad was fond of me from our first date, I think he misses us together. He is a good man, be a good son.
You taught me the importance of family. Before you, I never had any family time. At my house, we just did separate things. Now I am very close with my mother, something I never had. I cherish my family and now can't wait to be with them.
You taught me the value of my own life. Had you not been there for me, I would not be here today. You saved me from a darkness that swallows many that it touches. Listening to me cry every day could not have been easy for you. Not knowing how to make it better must have been worse. Thanks for making me get help. I don't fear knives, razors, or tall buildings anymore.
You taught me how to look in someone’s eyes and see if they love you.
You taught me that different people are different. We have different priorities. We have different interpretations. We have different needs. We have different minds.
You taught me that one opinion is just one opinion. The only one that really matters in the end is my own.
You taught me the duplicity of people. I saw your good side for so many years. Others had seen the ugly one during those years. You wielded both, and I was blind. Make the good side take over. It will be harder for you in the beginning, but life will be easier for you in the long run.
You taught me how to cry for the right reason. I cried because I was sad. I cried because it hurt inside. I cried because I knew that you knew, and because you wanted it that way.
You taught me that smart people do stupid things.
You taught me how to let go of a poisonous relationship. It is a life skill that I might never have acquired had it not been for your atrocious behavior.
You taught me that even true love can come to an end. I miss our past, though I know it can never be repeated, and we must go our separate directions, and we already have.
Our relationship is torn and may never be repaired, but I will never forget you. How could I? You have taught me so much.
Best of luck in the world,
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Posted by sushi910 on 2008-02-18 05:08:23 | Rating: | Views: 108
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What a beautiful attitude sushi.
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Posted by Pauligan
on 2008-02-19 07:19:15
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I've writen something like that.
It makes me sad you know, because then I think about who I was living for-Now, I must live for myself. It's so hard to know that it can't be how it used to when it ends. Maybe everything happens for a reason...that's what I'd like to think...but who knows.
And, I thank you.
I have someone to relate to now.
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Posted by FartherThanAlaska
on 2008-03-11 10:37:07
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I'm reading this again, and I want to send it to him. I wonder if I should, now that he has contacted me again.
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Posted by sushi910
on 2008-04-13 05:48:12
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