I have always been a person who has been able to handle stress and being over worked.  I am actually sitting at my desk at work, at the job which i hate, at ajob which i hate waking up 2.  i hate the perfect job which i loved doing and loved goign to. But i made the sacrifice and lost the job to make her happy. I made that choice and i made that sacrifice. knowone else did i made that choice and i stick by it.  I changed the way i dressed and expressed how i felt about her cuase i was a bit closed in emotions and she needed to hear how i felt. I changed as a person i gave up so much. I stood there alone dealing with all my issues putting a fake smile on my face to protect her from all that. Why am i the one suffering??  i really dont get how the world works.  I think its at a point where i have no control, even of my own life.  its like im a chicken with its head cut off i dont know where i am going. The thing i want the most is to just talk to her, to hold her, to be with her, and her to want the same thing. I want her to know that when we are standing side by side that we are strong.  But how can i keep trying and trying and trying when its only a one way thing?