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im writing in grey because that is how i feel... i have finally come to the realization (again) that i have no life.. tonight i went to the bar and sat in the parking lot for over an hour trying to get someone to meet me there because i didnt want to go in alone.. i did not recognize any cars there.. so i sit and freeze.. they keep saying they are going to be there but of course never showed up.. lmao.. they just called... 2 hours after i parked at the bar.. i could go back, but last call is now... so it would be pointless..
i never could figure out why someone wants someone else in their life until the last few days.. then after seeing this guy a few times, and never hearing back from him i realize why someone wants someone in their life... it does get kind of lonely.. i dont remember ever feeling this lonelyness..
i dont even know if i am happy with my new job anymore.. the pay is good and i mainly only work one 24 hour shift a week so i am off the rest of the week, but i dunno.. its not really the job i dont like, it is the people.. there is too much he said she said bs that goes on..we are all adults, most of them several years older than me so shouldnt they act that way?? aparently they do not know that..
i remember last year i had a few goals, have accomplished some of them, but not the others and the others dont seem to be coming my way... i wanted to get out of school, get a job, get a car, get a house and find someone to spend my life with... well i got out of school, got the job, got drunk and bid on a car on ebay, so now i am just left with getting a house and man... lol.. good luck on those two right?
i am actually at a loss for words right now.. guess i am going to get on my other computer and clean it out so i can give it to my son and my nephew.. they have my dads old computer, but it has so much junk and he doesnt know where the reboot disks are, so i figure i dont use it anymore and it is just taking up desk space... plus even though the comp they have is slow.. i think my nephew is looking up porn.. this way i can fix it where he cant see it.. anyways, yall have a great night, dont do anything that i wouldnt do...
peace out
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Posted by styrafoamcup on 2008-01-13 03:09:39 | Rating: | Views: 106
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"got drunk and bid on a car on ebay" LOL. Silly.
Sorry to hear you're going through a rough time.
Just to let you know, I find that no matter where one works, if it's not at home, people will talk. Especially if you live in a small neighourhood.
Awful, isn't it?
I'm sorry to hear nobody would go to the bar with you. I'd have gone with you. :D lol.
Maybe you need to get out and do other things? Save up for a trip?
it's not like you have no life... It's just that right now you have a boring life. (or at least that's what I'm getting out of it)
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and Getting drunk and bidding on a car on ebay sounds like a good story. You got any more to that story you could share? lol.
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Posted by Jeshikan
on 2008-01-13 03:20:15
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Ah I feel your pain. Life is boring, and unless you want to join the CIA, become a supermodel or whatever makes you giddy all you can do is try to cling to sanity and experience brief moments of pleasure. (I don't think I've helped, somehow...)
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Posted by CynicalSweetheart
on 2008-01-13 08:58:22
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i probably have more stories to share.. might post them sometime.. yes i do have a lonely boring life.. lol.. im still alive so i do have some type of life...
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Posted by styrafoamcup
on 2008-01-13 19:07:44
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i think it would be cool to be in the cia but heck too much hard work to get there... supermodel, not for me.... clinging to sanity, that is something i def can not do!!! i would rather have lots of moments of pleasure and brief moments of sanity!!! :-)
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Posted by styrafoamcup
on 2008-01-13 19:09:43
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