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Sorry for lack of well, me. =]
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okay, well see here's the thing, tons of stuff has been going on, and I currently have to rely upon my aunt's computer for internet access.
I'm really too lazy to write it all out again[3 finals today, no fun at all], so here's a message I sent to a friend of mine, mat.:
u read...
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strandedxalone on 2008-05-12 18:25:25
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About Me on my myspace page
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I'm Jess, which you should already know if you're looking at my profile. I was gonna tell you all about how Im 14 and go to . But unfortunately, I'm not going to, well i did,...
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strandedxalone on 2008-04-03 19:56:27
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not since the 16th.
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I havent cut since march 16th. so in your face! well, not in anyones face, but still. ha! and i'm just starting to be happy again. And my best guy friend nathanial asked me out and its gonna be great and i really like him. and grr, i love it. the only downside to it is that we arent...
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strandedxalone on 2008-03-30 20:00:00
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Lovely, just lovely
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I haven't posted in a while, but I've had a lot to do with church and school. Church is great, but time just flies when I'm there, especially with Mat. But I don't like him, trust me. People always think I do, but I don't.
And since I'm mostly out of my weird foggy mind thing, I'm actually...
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strandedxalone on 2008-03-06 20:21:39
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Hm, today:
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Today was actually really good.
Laura [the lady who picks me up for church on Sundays] picked me up a little early this morning, so we obviously got there early.lol. So I went down to the teen room and cleaned up a bit. I'm known for doing that kind of stuff, ever since I organized this...
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strandedxalone on 2008-02-24 15:54:52
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Screw this
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I'm going to bed.
Tomorrow's church, maybe it'll have the same effect as it did last time. And maybe I won't give in half way through the week like the idiot I am. Not that they know about my cutting, but I want to tell the guys. I love thenm to death, and they have a right to...
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strandedxalone on 2008-02-23 21:13:34
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Weakness
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This just sucks... I can't even make it a week without giving in. It's my biggest weakness, and I'll never be able to overcome it. Why does it always have to be like this? I smile and have fun like everyone else, but there's this dark edge to everything, a dark secret hovering over me, and I know...
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strandedxalone on 2008-02-22 17:18:14
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I just wanna die
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What's wrong with me? I feel like a total idiot for cutting in the first place. Was I even thinking? And every time I go a few days without it, I start thinking I'm the stupidest person alive for ever doing it. And that doesn't help me in the least. All I ever ask for is someone to love me, and...
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strandedxalone on 2008-02-21 18:17:12
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Bored Out Of My Mind
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How is it even possible that I'm this bored? How?
I've tried everything, and I'm still bored! Ugh. This is so stupid! Normally when I'm bored, I can find something to do, but today, that isn't the case. I'm so bored that I'm blogging about BEING BORED! Now I know why I like school, it...
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strandedxalone on 2008-02-20 17:56:32
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Day 3
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Yay! I made it through day 2!
And it's mostly because I talked to that one guy again. It's like he kinda gives me the motivation I need to keep going. Up until I talked to him, I'd been feeling like I absolutely needed to cut myself. I havent thrown out my "things" yet, and I think...
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strandedxalone on 2008-02-19 16:21:32
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Mahatma Ghandi
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is it me, or was he just brilliant?
Of course it isn't just me. Duh, Jess, get a grip.
Some of my favorite quotes from him:
"Happiness is when what you think, what you say, and what you do are in harmony."
"Freedom is not worth having if it does not include the freedom...
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strandedxalone on 2008-02-18 21:25:25
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I love:
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Secondhand Serenade: It's Not Over is one of my favorite songs by him. He's amazing. I love his voice, and how any of his songs make me feel. And that would be a range of emotions, sweetie. It's nice to just listen to his songs over and over.
And Tokio Hotel: I don't know what it...
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strandedxalone on 2008-02-18 19:51:11
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day two
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I'm sick today, and I feel absolutely horrible. I've been sick since yesterday, but it wasn't as bad last night. It's one of those things where stuff keeps coming from my nose and eyes and my throat hurts and coughing makes my head wanna die.
I just wanna say, that I did NOT cut last...
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strandedxalone on 2008-02-18 11:49:45
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Church and Cutting: A New Light
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I gave my heart to Jesus truly and 100% about a year and a half ago. And since then, I've tried my hardest not to miss a Sunday, and when there was youth group, I went every Wednesday. Don't get me wrong, I'd been going since I could remember [long story] and I'd always thought I was a Christian....
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strandedxalone on 2008-02-17 16:25:39
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strandedxalone on 2008-02-16 21:18:49
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since yesterday:
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I had to go to my father's house yesterday and only just got home about an hour ago. I really hate it there, that's the problem. I mean, every other weekend, I try to be positive about it and just get it over with. But I've never been able to stay there without ending up crying.
Today, it...
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strandedxalone on 2008-02-16 20:16:42
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I Just want everyone to be happy
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That's all.
I don't want people to cry. Or be unhappy in any way at all. I want everyone to be happy. I wish I could just give every SI-er a big hug and tell them it's gonna be okay. Why can't we all just love each other and be happy, the way God intended?
I was talking to a guy who...
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Posted by:
strandedxalone on 2008-02-14 21:09:08
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The truth about cutting
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Ok, so to be honest, do you even know what it's like to cut? I only just started in November [[full story to be posted soon]], but Already, it's captured me. Last night, I cut. With what? My amature little broken razor blade. you know, like the kind most people...
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Posted by:
strandedxalone on 2008-02-14 17:10:17
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So Today...
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Ok, so a lot's been going through my mind today, and not because it's valentine's day, though I do admit I'm not liking the couples who've become extra smoochy and lovey dovey for this one day.
Anyway, So I went to school and I passed in my History...
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Posted by:
strandedxalone on 2008-02-14 16:01:28
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Conversation with myself
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In my mind, I have conversations with myself. I think I'll post one every week or so.
Me: You can't sew on angel wings. Are you crazy? Wings of any kind can't be sewn on.
Other Me: Yeah you can.
M: Oh really, let's see you try.
OM:...
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Posted by:
strandedxalone on 2008-02-13 19:39:37
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