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I'm a horrible friend. I'm sitting in my room drinking Vitamin Water alone instead of partying with my friends like I said I was going to. Worst part? Not one has asked about why I'm not with them.
So I guess I don't feel as bad about ignoring them. I'd rather be dead than anything else right now. It's true. If I could kill myself right now, I would. What's stopping me? I promised someone I wouldn't. I wish I hadn't because it would be really enjoyable to be dead right now.
Also, I'm really lightheaded and tired right now. I'm probably more than just a little phsycially ill because I can barely walk to the bathroom without getting dizzy and wanting to sleep for another 8-15 hours.
I probably have cancer. And as much as I know this is horrible to say, I kind of wish I did. Because then I could die and no one could blame me. (I know people who have had cancer and I've watched them suffer, but I really just want an excuse to be dead. I'm not trying to be a bitch, but seriously...It would be a blessing. Plus, then it could take someone who doesn't deserve to be alive instead of someone who has done nothing wrong in this world.)
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Posted by stefbakes on 2008-02-23 22:43:56 | Rating: | Views: 104
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God's not listening. He gave up on me a long time ago.
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Posted by stefbakes
on 2008-02-24 03:23:16
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You are not a crappy person! You are a wonderfully unique person who people care about. Life is not easy - it's definately an adventure. Try filling your mind and heart with positive thoughts. I truly believe that you are on this earth for a reason, and everything that happens was meant to happen. And it's true what Oprah preaches about - if you put out positive energy, it will be positive energy that comes back to you. I hope my words give you some hope! :)
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Posted by tracisthoughts
on 2008-03-02 01:31:59
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if you need to talk i am here i have felt this way before this to shall pass,you not crappy your sain in an insane world,things affect you deeply,be well
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Posted by necronomincon
on 2008-03-04 13:42:48
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