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Is there a therapist in the house..??..
It's amazing at how much I feel alone. My husband is here, but he's not. I've had about all I can take. He's still hiding things from me, he has an email addy that he kept "secret". He never wants me to see his email anyway...It's hard to put my finger on it exactly, but there's......Read More

Posted on: 2008-08-24 15:34:54 | Rating:

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Sex, Marriage, Passion. Am I the only one who's tr
Some days, I feel completely alone. He's here with me. And yet, I feel a million miles away from him most days.Yeah, I miss him, the passion, the touch. But he's not even trying. It's alot like living with my brother..He doesn't understand how his touch affects me. And he's here yet I feel I......Read More

Posted on: 2008-08-17 21:13:37 | Rating:

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Road To Nowhere
I was looking back on my life And all the things I've done to me I'm still looking for the answers I'm still searching for the key The wreckage of my past keeps haunting me It just won't leave me alone I still find it all a mystery Could it be a dream? The Road To Nowhere leads......Read More

Posted on: 2008-08-04 20:50:15 | Rating:

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Someone asked Now What?
I wish I knew....The only thing for me to do is some how find my way down this path I chose. I love him very much and in every way but one he's perfect. So, what do you do...? You love him, take care of him, stand by him. I may scream my heart out here in this journal, but I'll be here......Read More

Posted on: 2008-07-27 14:39:15 | Rating:

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Maybe I was addicted to sex and all that comes wit
After hours of running all of this through my head, I've learned that I may have been addicted to sex and new relationships. Is that possible? When I look back, there's been men in and out of my life like revolving doors. I never stayed long. The longest was almost 10 years. Not too long, is......Read More

Posted on: 2008-07-24 14:58:44 | Rating:

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A Cheating Wife
It was something I toyed with. I had a couple of men that were more than willing, they were not married so their time was all mine. They were able to work around my schedule as mine is hard to work out when you try to keep lies.....Which isn't something I can do. I love my husband and he is......Read More

Posted on: 2008-07-14 18:40:46 | Rating:

| Views: 114 | Comments: 0 | Tags: sex marriage crazyinthehead

Sexless by adaption
OK, Doc says your healthy other than cholesterol being somewhat high, which does lead to ED in some men. And low testosterone, which again can be helped with some sort of lotion you rub in. SO, how do you take it when he doesn't take the meds? I have decided it has been so long and at his age,......Read More

Posted on: 2008-07-07 16:29:45 | Rating:

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I decided that not feeling, or not feeling as much
Where my husband is concerned would be better for me. Now, I'm not sure. I can't help feeling like I've become a little frosty....I didn't want that, although, in a odd way, I do feel better. How long is a person suppose to live this way? I love my husband, but living without passion......Read More

Posted on: 2008-06-09 19:29:09 | Rating:

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I think I need a sex fairy...
I don't think I can overlook the No sex.....I love my husband very much, I want Him, but it's really diffcult to deal with this situation. I've never had to cope with this, I've never known a man who didin't live for sex....Never....There's no passion in him. Not for me anyway. I......Read More

Posted on: 2008-05-27 17:34:29 | Rating:

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He said he'd never tell me NO....
Do you know what it's like to have sex with someone who lays there and tries to act interested?? I thought that was usually what the woman does, so I've heard...Although, I have heard stories from both sides...Just about the time I think I've got it under control, he does something to set......Read More