Sorry i was late getting to read your poem.
Your words are truthful and very strong. But you know, there is no one that teaches one how to be a mother. With some it comes naturally and with others it is a struggle. But I can tell you one thing. Moters always love their children. Sometimes you have to turn around and put the shoe on the other foot. Read some of what you wrote in your profile and then ask yourself what you would do in that situation. Once drugs are involved you no longer are dealing with the person that yoou know as Mom. You are dealing with a complete stranger. A stranger to you and a stranger to herself.

She will always have regrets. Loosing you and doing what she has done is the toughest thing in the world for her to be going through. In fact it is probably making it worse. Yes, I am sticking up for your Mom. Some may not agree. But I am a Mom. I am struggling with my boys and I haven't a clue why. But I also lost my daughter to drugs and I know she was two differnt people. But she never stopped loving her children. She just did not know how to do it while on drugs. The years go by and you wonder why she hasn't stopped by now. Drugs has no time limit. When shes ready to fight that battle she will. But at the same time she needs a reason. You are her reason. trust what I say. And never ever stop loving your Mom. She knew you nine months longer than anyone else. She loves you. She will never stop loving you. You must believe that. you must realize the torture she is going through. No matter what wrong decisions she makes it is the drugs not her. So please do not condem her for things she has done wrong. Things will change.
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