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snugglechum's Blogs in January 2009

intro.......
I guess an intro would be good here........ am 30 something control freak with a passion for anything outdoors which can include streaking, dressing up as a fairy to play knock and run and doing drive by peltings with fruit and veg at kicking out time. am slightly eccentric ex west midlands......Read More

Posted on: 2009-01-03 18:18:24 | Rating:

| Views: 46 | Comments: 2 | Tags: intro love life universe

new year resolutions
another new year is upon us and once more i feel the need to make certain changes, to reflect on my life over the past year in an attempt to modify my behaviour and make this year somehow better, brighter than the last. 2009 is my year, of that i am sure. have i said that before, every other......Read More

Posted on: 2009-01-03 18:50:37 | Rating:

| Views: 46 | Comments: 0 | Tags: new year resolutions happy new year hope family

fight or flight.......
Now before you go any further, i must warn you that this may turn into a bit of a mad rant. i did write a particularly depressive post about love and how destructive and painful an emotion it can be. well im now up to my neck, past the point of no return. i guess it would make sense to......Read More

Posted on: 2009-01-08 15:43:27 | Rating:

| Views: 51 | Comments: 1 | Tags: love 3 little words emotion fight or flight

to my late husband.........
this is one of the most difficult things i have ever felt the need to write, to talk of, to think about even............... my ex husband was killed a few years ago in a car accident. i still dont believe it. part of me thinks in some elaborate plot to avoid the child support......Read More

Posted on: 2009-01-08 16:16:37 | Rating:

| Views: 45 | Comments: 2 | Tags: death love life

i cant do it......
i cant do it, i simply cant. i tried, really i did. i allowed myself to like him, not to judge him based upon the mistakes of those that had come before him (no pun intended). and i did like him, i liked him a whole lot and then it happened, that dreaded thing that just fucks with every......Read More

Posted on: 2009-01-10 16:49:22 | Rating:

| Views: 39 | Comments: 1 | Tags: walk away love hurt break ups insecurities

im not a victim.......
the wonderful thing about finding a little space in the world where you can offload all of your crap, where you can remain anonymous, where you feel like a very small fish is a very big pond, is that you can be brutally honest, you can share things that you wouldnt tell your closest friend or......Read More

Posted on: 2009-01-10 17:35:54 | Rating:

| Views: 59 | Comments: 2 | Tags: victim violence abuse childhood relationships

obama obama obama
For all the American peoples out there, the first thing i would like to make clear is that i am British. i dont know why i feel that may be an issue but i do. my view of the election of obama may be somewhat different based on cultural differences. anyway, firstly i think this is the most......Read More

Posted on: 2009-01-20 08:14:40 | Rating:

| Views: 65 | Comments: 3 | Tags: obama democracy inspiration

leaving home
i left home really young, like 2 weeks before my 16th birthday. i'd run away many times but always knew i was going home at some point. this time felt very different. i had packed into a holdall and 1 case everything i thought i would need, including a bottle of whiskey and several snacks. it......Read More

Posted on: 2009-01-20 17:33:35 | Rating:

| Views: 35 | Comments: 1 | Tags: leaving home

kissline
i was about 16/17 i think, living on my own with no money and in a pretty crappy state really. i started to look for a 'proper' job so i'd feel less like a down and out and give me some structure to my life but it was more difficult than i thought it would be. no one wanted to employ someone who......Read More

Posted on: 2009-01-21 06:32:11 | Rating:

| Views: 36 | Comments: 0 | Tags: kissogram rebellion

panic!!!!
i find it very difficult to talk about my attacks without almost bringing one on. It sounds ridiculous but the very thought arouses such fear of another that i can become overwhelmed and be in the grasp of panic and anxiety before i realise, and by which time its too late. my nerves were always......Read More