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Two months is too little
They let him go
They had no sudden healing
To think that providence would
Take a child from his mother while she prays
Is appalling.
Who told us we'd be rescued?
What has changed and why should we be saved
From nightmares?
We're asking why this happens
To us who have died to live?
It's unfair.
Chorus:
This is what it means to be held
How it feels when the sacred is torn from your life
And you survive.
This is what it is to be loved
And to know that the promise was
When everything fell we'd be held.
This hand is bitterness
We want to taste it, let the hatred know
Our sorrow.
The wise hands opens slowly
To lillies of the valley and tomorrow.
Chorus
Bridge:
If hope is born of suffering?
If this is only the beginning?
Can we not wait for one hour
Watching for our Saviour?
I really never heard this song until recently and it hit me so hard. It brought me to sobbing as I stepped out of my shower. The lyrics (I pointed out the ones that really meant the most to me) are so powerful "who told us we'd be rescued?" all throughout history there is story after story of Christians who were tortured, families torn apart all because they were Christians...God never once said follow me and I'll make everything perfect for you, in fact things become harder. So why become a Christian? I mean are we not just gluttons for punishment? The difference there is that God does promise he will be there for us, as the song says we will be held when everything falls apart-that is the promise we as Christians hold onto. This song makes me think of April 4th 2007, Erin was only two months old when she was taken, and while she wasn't killed, we prayed for a healing, we prayed for the nightmare to end and to me it felt like God wasn't listening. I got angry, I let bitterness sink in...I couldn't understand how he (after all I'd been through) could do this to me, let this happen. Erin was innocent, punish me but not her.
There was one morning where I woke up and felt a peace like I had never felt before. It was if God was saying "I have everything under control", I was sure that meant it would all be over soon-that was over a year ago and I am still waiting. We as humans want everything NOW, patience is hard to comprehend...the thing I am beginning to learn is that He does have everything in his hand, that he's been holding me this entire time. People always comment on how strong I am, to me I'm not strong...in thinking about it, it's God not me that's strong, He's what has kept me from breaking down completely. Were it not for him I don't know what I would be like, where I would be, He is the reason I can still feel...it's because of his strength that I am not a walking zombie. Thank you God for holding me, because more than anything at this point being held both physically and spiritually is what I need.
I hope and pray this song touches you as well, that if you are going through what you think is the darkest point in your life you can see that we were never promised roses and sunshine but we were promised a father who will hold us as we cry.
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Posted by snowwhite1983 on 2008-09-18 16:41:00 | Rating: | Views: 40
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Oh this song has ministered to me as well. Have you searched for it to listen to on youtube?
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Posted by joni
on 2008-09-18 17:20:24
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your blog was very encouraging
keep up the good faith and God will see you through
Jeremiah 29:11
"For I know the plans I have for you," says the Lord. "They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope
AMEN
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Posted by good_news
on 2008-09-22 20:45:50
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