Lately, I have been noticing how every thing on earth seems like a contradiction. For instance, I have seen that the anger, resentment, and so called "weakness" that people (including myself) feel for not having or achieving the love (or whatever it is) they desire, is just one big giant indicator that they do; and to the very same extent that they think they don't. I remember when I was younger, I was laughing about a joke I heard on the radio which I considered to be very smart and witty. I was somewhat impressed that I had understood such a joke that seemed beyond me. I, being who I was..or maybe still am, was impressed, but needed affirmation. I told my aunt about it and I don't quite remember exactly what she said, but she somehow implied that although I understood the joke I was still quite seperate from it. I told her: "Of course I'm not separate from it, I couldn't understand it if I wasn't" , "a joke can't be a joke without an audience". This was stated firmly but I wish I was actually as convinced in reality. My aunt disagreed with what I had said and it therefore created a gap between MY BELIEF and the reality. The truth is.. whatever we want, we are actually a part of. If I have an HONEST desire for something, I have now bonded with something that I will acheive or not based on how much I believe I am a part of it. The difficulty comes from the separation we give ourselves from ANYTHING. Theres is simply no separation from you or I to anyone or anything else. Insecurity, lack of self worth, shame, anger and many other emotions that don't feel "right" , are just that, NOT RIGHT. We sometimes give the things that seemingly overpower us the ability to. Unknowingly, it could be possible that we ourselves actually create this higharchy in which certain people or things can stop our advancement to anything. The belief that one IS actually greater than the other; the BELIEF that it IS possible for one person (possibly us) to have the ability to be right, better, smarter, even more worthy than the next person could be the same thing that destroys us. Thankfully there are no set labels in life. Everything does not come with a tag in which explains how wrong or right something is. Humans have given the labels to EVERYTHING. We think we know what's wrong and right, and maybe that is how our beliefs and therefore abilities are shaped. We have completely eradicated the importance and equality of every single thing, place, and person on Earth. We have set our own standards and are now imprisoned within them. Maybe there's an answer in having no answers on this earth. When we are at peace, we usually are in acceptance,and there isn't a need to label anything when it comes to that. All this because I asked myself, "If the understanding that I am not what I am upset about didnt exist, would I still be upset? " LOL