I have been thinking too much of the outcome of my ordinary future and how Im trying to hurry to work and become a member of the real world more quickly than I need to. I have always thought that the sooner I started working the better that I wish I could skip all these years of college and the many hassles it brings with it. Then it hit me, i would be doing the same thing. i would make friends at work that I would not see often because Iwould be traveling and then going out to eat or the movies or anywhere else would just be a routine. That dating cannot get much harder than now.While I am working my 70 hours a week and I could not keep a relationship. My friends i made would get husbands then how would i deal with being the 3rd wheel at everything or the odd girl out. I dont like the idea of kids in my life. I hate it actually. The taking care of them, feeding, clothes, and worse the time and effort to put into them. By 2012 the world will out grow the people living in it.(fake estimations) I used to think adopting was an option but maybe not. I just dont want to have something holding me back. If i ever find someone again, who could ever put the fact that I like working and traveling and my job as a priority. What guy would like to know that his girlfriend is working too much and not devoting time to a relationship. I dont see a marriage or kids. Not that i am all workaholic but just the idea of giving someone that power over me. The power to limit the things I can do is frustrating. I dont want it in my life. I always give my heart and mind a chance to change their mind if they want to. I like dating but not the whole official tell me what you are doing and who and checking up. Just a hey you are free and I am too.. lets go out. 
                       So I started to think what the point of making many friends in college and all these if everyone will get different jobs and by the time we know it we will be all forgotten. Did you leave more than 5 hours away to college and finished and when you had a wedding invited your friends from High School? You probably hadnt talked to them in years.
                      Thats when my very good friend gave me hope to the veryday life that I plan to live. That no matter where we are we all have a basic understading that we are going to be busy. As long as we are single, we can vacation together and make plans for home visits. That even if we are married we can still enjoy a week of girl time and it wouldnt be akward with a husband if one of us never married. That if we did marry and since we didnt have kids planned for the future that many double vacations and friendships that are long lasting because we made it to another level of understanding. We know that we will be busy and that we will indeed not be in the same city. But the promise of a friendship will make it. This girl is my first real college friend, where we dont have much in common but the major we choose, but we clicked and we just bonded better than any person I have ever known. I love that. We might not make it to the end... but she gave me ahope that it doesnt have to end. That we are not wasting time getting to know people we are going to forget. Im thankful for her.
                    In our talk we mentioned many things, among them was my i dea of fantasy world that i would love to exsist somewhere and how i would love to have a shred of hope spme magic and the needness to be more to life than just our mundane lives. She agreed. I know she thinks im the wierdest sometimes. Because I am, dont think like regular people do. I imagine more and notice things people tend  not to care about which I find is a gift to me. I like my thinking and my ideas. I think I am a little bit more creative than what people give me credit for. I just dont like to show that side of me because it makes me feel like I revealed too much. People dont deserve to know how much goes on in my head. They would not understand me. To the world I am A faboulous MIS Business Major at Texas A&M with aspirations to travel everywhere. Hoping that to be my job, Ohh yeah and that im the roudy mexcan that people like to party with. Imagine them trying to know I write a blog. or that I have made paintings or that I like writing short stories or that I like taking photographs. Its not possible. That part of mine gets revealed to the few that dont judge me and love me with and open heart.