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| 'Oh No, This Couldn't Be More Unexpected'' |
Hey everyone. Wow I feel like a stranger around here. I promise you I never ditched this place. I've been stopping by regularly and reading your amazing posts, Just haven't had a reason to write. If I heard myself say that six months ago I would've scoffed and replied with, "You don't need a reson to write!." I've been humbled over the time that I've been gone but I think it's important that I update you lot on what I've been up to.
First off, I've been incredibly busy with school. It's a lot more challenging this year. You don't want to hear about my boring work but I can assure you it has taken up 75% of my time. The other 15% was devoted to my family. They are going through a bit of a rocky time right now. One of my mom's good friends, whom I am also close with, lost her husband to a really terrible illness. She knew he wasn't going to make it to next year but noone expected him to pass on this early. She is in shock right now and it hasn't really hit her but we're trying to help her because once it does, it's gonna hit her hard.
The last 10% of my time was spent with Nick. I don't know where to start other than at the beginning. Nick and I met in December 2008. We started getting involved in March. We have been kinda but not really dating for a while now. Now that I think of it, we were never exclusive, but back to my point. If there was a guy that I would fall for, it would be Nick. He was everything that I was looking for and I couldn't quite get him off of my mind. He seemed to feel the same. The fatal turning point in our relationship: a saturday night party of a mutual friend of ours. I pretty much made it clear that I was happy to "hang out" and he eagerly agreed. I told him to meet me in 15 minutes because I wanted to talk to some of my other friends that were there. Something came up and I got an urgent call from a friend and I had to go meet her. I thought about saying bye to Nick but I couldn't find him so I left the message with a friend to tell him. I saw him the next day and asked him how the party was. He told me it was good and had a big smile on his face. We never really brought it up again and went back to our flirtatious game.
Fast forward 2 weeks later and here we are. I was out for lunch with my good friend Joe and we ran into our mutual friend Johnnie. The first thing Johnnie said to me was:
"Hey did you hear about Nick?"
"What? Um...no. Why?"
"About him and Jennifer at that party"
"What about..."
"Uh...they kinda fucked."
"Oh."
To which Joe responded with:
"No way! How was she?"
"He said that she was small."
At this point, Joe remembered that I was sitting there and knowing what was good for him he responded with:
"Yeah...she doesn't seem that great."
First of all, Jennifer is beautiful. Second of all some dick that I really liked is sleeping with her.
I was actually supposed to meet him later that day with Joe so we decided to go through with it. Joe suggested that we confront him and I agreed. I walked up to him and very pleasantly brought up Jenny. He looked at Joe, then back at me and confirmed the rumours. I smiled, again very pleasantly and said, "Good for you, she's hot."
I took this oppurtunity to walk away.
I am done. Finished.
All I needed was one good reason for me to stop falling for him and now I have it. It's a pretty good reason in my opinion. I would've thought that I would be hurt, cry, get angry or make excuses for him, but I'm quite happy. Now my life won't revolve around this one person and I can get him off of my mind. All I have to do is picture him on top of Jennifer and anything that I previously felt for him dissapears. It's great.
I probably am in shock, but I'm feeling...content. I'm ready to move on. I'm so relieved that we never got into an official relationship. I never would've guessed he would be like this but I guess one's true character has to come out sometime or another.
I guess the real point of this post is
SMILEFORTHECAMERA IS BACK ON THE MARKET AND QUITE HAPPY TO LIVE THE SINGLE LIFE!!!!!!!!!!!!
What I hear:
So Contagious--> Acceptance
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