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this is my first entry here, first time blogging. i don't know what to say?
i'm almost 26 and finally finding my way in this crazy world. i'm been blessed w/a great family, awesome friends and an adoring boyfriend who would do anything to make me happy. i've had my ups and downs but i think its important to remember the good things in life during those turbulent times. i'm a gemini and have always been a "glass is half full" kinda girl. i'm thankful for the experiences i went through b/c they have made me the person i am. i'm a much stronger, smarter, kinder person b/c of them. i've come to realize its the little things in life that are so sweet and wonderful and those are the things i cherish.
i think too many people want things handed to them, no one wants to work for the things they want in life. i have to admit i don't always want to work for things i want. i have no patience and i change my mind ALL the time. so its hard for me to work toward something that may take a while to attain. however i have learned the importance of setting goals..............after college i had absolutely no idea what i wanted to do w/my degree. i was so lost in that aspect of my life. i remember one night i was so upset and crying b/c i wasn't happy and totally confused. it was the worse feeling. i drifted from job to job for 4 years and finally at my last job, something clicked and now i know what i want i'm going back to school this fall (as long as i get accepted, crossing my fingers) i'm a type A personality and the oldest child in my family so i like to have control and know whats going on and when i don't life is rough for me.
at my last job i was cabin attendant on a boat on the river. i'm a modest person but i have to say i was good at my job and i'm very pesonable and very customer service oriented. a lot of my guests would ask me if i was going to school (college) b/c i looked so young but at the time i was 25 and had graduated when i was 21. so i'd tell them what my degree was and they'd ask me what i wanted to do and i'd say i don't know, still trying to figure it out. when of my guests told me though that i needed to set more goals for myself. i think some of my guests thought i was selling myself short doing what i was doing. i never set goals though b/c for one, i never knew what i wanted and two, my mind changes all the time and three, i'm totally afraid of failing. i think my fear of failing started in middle school. i remember being at a track meet and not wanting to run b/c i was afraid of losing or coming in dead last. i don't want to look bad in front of people. i am such a people pleaser. i want everyone to like me, even though i know that's not possible. i'm not a big fan of conflict and like everyone to get along. i'm a very caring and forgiving person and understanding. i'm more afraid of hurting someones feelings than worrying about them hurting me. and yes people do make me mad but give me time and i'm over it.
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Posted by smartallick on 2008-05-26 15:06:11 | Rating: | Views: 28
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