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i know im probaby just being ridiculous. but... idk. i dont mind my boyfriend talking to girls or hugging them or w/e. im not very protective like some girls are. we were at church yesterday then we went back to his house to chill for a while. we got to cuddle and everything and everything was great. we had a great time. then when we had the lil halloween festival at the church we were working at with a bunch of lil kids came all dressed up. and everything was going fine. we were having fun. until this girl name maggie showed up whos a year younger and already has a bf who apparently shes cheated on countless times. but the first thing she does when she sees my boyfriend is she jumps into his arms and is all over him. shes dressed like a lil dorothy from wizard of oz whore. then if shes around me she acts like a complete bitch and countlessly talks about my bf and trys to show off by showing me naked pictures of guys that people sent to her on her phone. then she leaves and follows my boyfriend around like a fucking puppy dog and is still all over him trying to grope him and she just wont leave him alone. so much to the point where i cant even talk to him the rest of the day. then it just got worse where a bunch of girls who are in my youth group that already hate me read some notes that i had laying out that my bf had written me. now they glare at me simltaneously as i walk past, they stand 10-15 feet behind me waiting for me to completely leave somewhere so they can get something. then they talk about me as i walk past. just barely loud enough so i can hear them as i walk past. so i just have a bunch of girls being bitches to me and most of my girlfriends arent there. so by the time i had to leave i could only give my bf half a hug and maybe a kiss on the cheek. so then today i felt really sick at school so i had to leave early. im talking to my bf over webcam cuz im hleping him with his hw. hes running around doing stuff and im working on some of his hw. him and his best friend are hanging out with one of there girl friends which idc cuz i like her. but i just feel like crap and i dont get to see my bf very often and i rarely get hugs from him especially when i need one. and at this point i really need one. about 3 or 4 times i look up on the webcam and shes back there jumping into his arms and giving him hugs. not like hes all over her, shes just jumping into his arms and its just hard to watch cuz i need a hug so bad... and i know i wont get one for a while and she'll be able to get one whenever she wants. and its hard to tell my bf cuz i dont wanna sound ridiculous and clingy. but just a lot of things are going on at home here and i'm just in that mood where i really need a hug. im sitting here crying. not really hard. but just crying cuz i miss him and i wish i could see him. and i know i wont be able to for a while. does anyone else ever feel like this? any advice?
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Posted by skull_iris on 2007-10-29 20:30:05 | Rating: | Views: 101
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