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I am some what depressed today. I guess it really is the blues. I have been so busy lately, and today there really isn't much to do. My brother was told a week ago that he has 2 weeks to live. He is in a skilled nursing facility and really doesn't look like he is at death's door. He has a weak heart because he refuses to take care of his diabetes. He has only taken care of himself in the past 6 months because the doctors told him at that time that he had only 6 months to live. Why does this affect me you ask? Well, because he is not married, never been married, and I'm the only one around of my siblings that can take care of him.
He is only 50. We have a sister who lives in Texas and a brother who lives over 100 miles away. I'm the only one close so the responsibility lies with me. I have his power of attorney, both medical and general.
This just isn't easy to do. Especially when you think about it, that he could have a long and prosperous life. Yesterday I went to see him and did notice a big difference in how he looks. He looks more frail. I know it is just a matter of time. When the heart decides to stop pumping than it will be over. He has turned off the defibulator that he has on his pace maker. There isn't anything else that the doctors can do. I know that it is in the Lord's hands to how much longer he has to live.
I just don't know how to think anymore. I don't want him to die. But then I don't want him to suffer anymore. And it really just makes me mad that he done this to himself. Am I wrong to feel this way? I really just want the Lord's will, whatever it may be.
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Posted by sistercyndi on 2007-11-01 09:56:16 | Rating: | Views: 100
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You're very wise for seeking the Lord's will.
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Posted by SubTomato
on 2007-11-01 10:13:37
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Still praying for you, hun. I'll send you a message later tonight.
Tried to chat with you the other day, but you must have got off before I did.
Sending my love, and prayers.
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Posted by naomidarlene
on 2007-11-02 10:37:01
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You and your brother are in my thoughts and prayers!
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Posted by Alice
on 2007-11-02 17:06:35
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