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i have a boyfriend for a year now, 1st boyfriend actually and he told me i would be his last. before we had intimate relationships or me having as his girlfriend he already knew that i had this desire to serve the church as a nun.
we were already planning to get married until i met new friends from the seminary. they were good brothers and they inspire me so much about life and all the things that all my passions before came back to my senses.
last night i had an honest talk with my boyfriend. i told him i wanted to get away for 2 days for reflection and meditation. that the feeling and desire i had before to serve the Lord full time as a nun came back. that i was totally inspired.
i saw how his eyes reacted. his ex left him for convent, he courted someone but yet became nun, there was this 3year relationship that ended because of unfaithful girl. his words struck me because he said why can't he find a girl who is moderate, the girl he always ends up with is either too good that desires religious life or is too unfaithful. both gives him pain. but he told me he would set me free from my decision. that he will give me time to think.
you see i love him but i just don't know if it is enough or will i be a good wife to him in the end. i love him that it hurts me to see him crying and in pain.
maybe a time for myself would help but i was just afraid he might lose me forever if he doesn't hold me now. honey is important to me as much as i am important to him. we exchanged promises that only time can tell.....
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Posted by sipimpople on 2008-04-25 18:09:45 | Rating: | Views: 89
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