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Old flame, new flame, same old story.

I went out this evening to celebrate the New Year in style. Dressed to the nines and out with old friends and family, I had a blast. I was a bit nervous to run into A. again, however. He was there, looking sweet and sultry as the last time I saw him. (He works there now, I don't.) I thought maybe it would be one of those wierd, nothing happened sort of things, but it wasn't. He was very flirty, and made eyes at me the entire time. He made sweet small talk, complimenting my hair, dress, laughing at my jokes, and kind of ignoring his other patrons. They thought it was sweet, watching him fumble a little when he looked at me, and smiling in my direction. I called him once he was off and we are going out this upcoming weekend, just to have a bit of fun. I am looking forward to it.

The next thing on my New Years list was calling C. regardless of the rejection, we are as close as ever. He really is a sort of comforting shield for me, like a favorite blanket. His friendship, our whole relationship, is warm and inviting, and feels like home. So it was with a great amount of happiness that I called to wish him the best for 2008. He was a little bummed, but happy to hear from me. He told me he was the only single person at a big party filled with happy twosomes. I knew who he was thinking about, longing to give a new year's kiss to. I told him to call her, to try and make amends. He said she contacted him, trying to perhaps rekindle something. I am happy to say that it was with an open and hopeful heart that I told him to go after it, and to cherish her if that is indeed what she wants. It feels like a great way to begin the year, genuinely hoping for the happiness and joy of another person. This is what I think true love is, caring enough to want him to care for someone else, and being willing to give myself another go with someone else. He was very glad to hear that I was getting together with A. for an afternoon. (Or evening) I was very glad to be doing so as well.

So that is the start of the year, the happy continuance of one relationship, and the sweet beginnings of another. I am really looking forward to spending some time with A., now that the rest of my life has settled into routine again. And A., being a darling, semi articulate man when put on the spot, was very happy too. So we will see how this all plays out. It has a familiar ring to it, but it's a happy tune that I know by heart. I can deeply, deeply love C., but I don't have to be chained to him to love him. I can find happiness with other people, other love interests, and be no less loyal to our friendship. And as always, anything new has that tinge of excitement, that thrill of the unknown. Looks like it's another adventure for me!