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Wow, I just looked back at my entries. As I did, I asked myself, "Why am I blogging so much?" , And here are the reasons: 1. I have time to myself, which is a rare occurrence. The kids are with their dad, my boyfriend is in Atlanta for a wedding, and for a change I did not make plans with my girlfriends. 2. I have a lot of pent up things that I need to get off my chest, and I am tried of sharing my stuff with people in real life, as friendship should not be all about me. 3. I have always wanted to be a writer, and the last two years of relationship stuff has offered me some insight.
Let's start with reason one-Time to Myself- Ever since I left my ex-husband, my life has been a whirlwind. I use to long for solitude when I was married, but once I was single, I was afraid of being lonely. So I worked, threw myself even more into ,y kids life, started dating, had plans every night. I got married at 20 and decided that I was going to do EVERYTHING. I missed out on. But what I have failed to do is to be comfortable in my own skin. So I have decided to take the time to do that. You may ask, "How do you make the time?". Well, I lost my job. I will tell you all about it. I have been a teacher for 13 years, and I am an excellent one. I taught in a wealthy school district until a year before my divorce and was comfortable, but felt like I was not giving back to the community. So I took a job in the lowest scoring urban district in the state. I grew up in a poor area and made it out and related to the kids, and was successful. In Massachusetts, after 3 years in a district, you get professional status (tenure). This was the end of my 3rd year in this district. Long story short, the district is in deep debt and needed to get rid of people. So despite my excellent evaluations, I was let go as I was expensive to keep. This has wounded me. I had an awesome relationship with my students and the people I worked with. I have to go and for the first time in my life, file for unemployment on Monday. I am not worried about money, I have my summer pay, unemployment and savings. I have had 3 interviews, and if nothing else, I can sub to get money for my expenses. I am also looking at cross training into another field, as I realize now that no job is certain. I am having a hard time because I am about work. But I now realize that I can't identify who I am with what I do. I also decided to rent a cabin and go on vacation ALONE for a week up on lake in rural Vermont. No cell phone service, internet or TV. It will give me time to be me, I love my kids, my friends, and I think that I am falling in love with my boyfriend, but I need to be happy with me. I plan on kayaking, hiking, reading, and
organizing my finances, life, and blog entries into a book(at least the beginnings of one).
Reason #2- People in Real Life- When spending time with those I care about, I want these times to be joyful, sure talking things out is great, but I think, at least for me, that blogging will allow me to be more concise and move onto enjoying those around me.
Reason #3- Becoming a Writer- Just like anything else, good writing takes practice. People love to read about relationships. If I do this one right, unlike, most relationships books it will have a happy ending.Wow, I just looked back at my entries. As I did, I asked myself, "Why am I blogging so much?" , And here are the reasons: 1. I have time to myself, which is a rare occurrence. The kids are with their dad, my boyfriend is in Atlanta for a wedding, and for a change I did not make plans with my girlfriends. 2. I have a lot of pent up things that I need to get off my chest, and I am tried of sharing my stuff with people in real life, as friendship should not be all about me. 3. I have always wanted to be a writer, and the last two years of relationship stuff has oferred me some insight.
Let's start with reason one-Time to Myself- Ever since I left my ex-husband, my life has been a whirlwind. I use to long for solitude when I was married, but once I was single, I was afraid of being lonely. So I worked, threw myself even more into ,y kids life, started dating, had plans every night. I got married at 20 and decided that I was going to do EVERYTHING. I missed out on. But what I have failed to do is to be comfortable in my own skin. So I have decided to take the time to do that. You may ask, "How do you make the time?". Well, I lost my job. I will tell you all about it. I have been a teacher for 13 years, and I am an excellent one. I taught in a wealthy school district until a year before my divorce and was comfortable, but felt like I was not giving back to the community. So I took a job in the lowest scoring urban district in the state. I grew up in a poor area and made it out and related to the kids, and was successful. In Massachusetts, after 3 years in a district, you get professional status (tenure). This was the end of my 3rd year in this district. Long story short, the district is in deep debt and needed to get rid of people. So despite my excellent evaluations, I was let go as I was expensive to keep. This has wounded me. I had an awesome relationship with my students and the people I worked with. I have to go and for the first time in my life, file for unemployment on Monday. I am not worried about money, I have my summer pay, unemployment and savings. I have had 3 interviews, and if nothing else, I can sub to get money for my expenses. I am also looking at cross training into another field, as I realize now that no job is certain. I am having a hard time because I am about work. But I now realize that I can't identify who I am with what I do. I also decided to rent a cabin and go on vacation ALONE for a week up on lake in rural Vermont. No cell phone service, Internet or TV. It will give me time to be me, I love my kids, my friends, and I think that I am falling in love with my boyfriend, but I need to be happy with me. I plan on kayaking, hiking, reading, and
organizing my finances, life, and blog entries into a book(at least the beginnings of one).
Reason #2- People in Real Life- When spending time with those I care about, I want these times to be joyful, sure talking things out is great, but I think, at least for me, that blogging will allow me to be more concise and move onto enjoying those around me.
Reason #3- Becoming a Writer- Just like anything else, good writing takes practice. People love to read about relationships. If I do this one right, unlike, most relationships books it will have a happy ending..
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Posted by singleat41 on 2008-06-21 21:29:22 | Rating: | Views: 71
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sounds like perfectly good reasons to me
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Posted by roe
on 2008-06-21 22:23:12
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i have to say something but i can't.you have been wonderful in expressing your feelings.i love to hear i just love it.i have been through tough times quite a lot.you know what in this way we get to know who iz on our side and whose not.just trust few trustworthy fellows.may u get every happiness in your life.
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Posted by danzzi
on 2008-06-22 13:03:06
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