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I know this is going to sound dramatic, but I hate my life. I do. I'm so lonely, all day everyday. I talk to my dog. I have "friends"at work, but we never hang out. I miss having friends over to watch movies or just go do something, anything with. I also miss Chris. With everything in me I miss that bastard, and I hate me for it. I know that I should be thankful for the blessings in my life, which I am, but it would be nice to be able to share those blessings with someone. I like me, I think I'm great, I don't have BO or anything. I guess I'm just too shy to go out an meet new people. It's just so hard to go up to complete strangers and generate a conversation. UGH. Plus, I work. A lot. 2 jobs and grad school. I'm 22, this is supposed to be the time of my life, well it's not! WTF! Where is my 'Easy' button??? God I miss Chris. Even when he was an asshole I loved him, I still love him, practically an entire year later. WTF is that? A YEAR later and I still miss this guy? And I know he doesn't miss me, which makes it worse...I feel absolutley pathetic...But I'm so much fun, I really am! I love doing things with other people and I'm a huge dork which makes it better! I don't understand how I don't have friends! Honestly I don't understand why I'm single! Of course, neither do a lot of people I suppose. I feel like I need to take action, but I have no idea what to do...I can't move, b/c I just moved here like 6 months ago. I need my job. I'd go out, but like I said, I don't really wnat to go somewhere alone and try to meet people, that's too intimidating. I was in a sorority, nothing should intimidate me, but this definitly does. Boo!
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Posted by simplyniky on 2007-12-04 20:38:32 | Rating: | Views: 78
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hey-at least you have a dog to talk to. I'm 6 months pregnant, stay at home and am completely bored out of my mind. I don't have that many friends, either. I can't wait to have my baby and go back to work. Trust me, I know how u feel.
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Posted by SpaceyCadett
on 2007-12-04 20:41:41
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My oh my....sister you have GOT to be strong!
Why are you letting a man control your mind and your destiny? There is not that much love in the world to make me sit around a year later being depressed over someone who doesn't care for you. I'm sorry and it is not my intention to put you down or make you feel bad, but I have to be honest with you. You are too damn young and apparently smart (if you are in grad school) to be sitting around wasting your promising life away!
First I suggest you visit my blog and read "Yesterday". Second, I suggest you get counseling and Lastly, I suggest you go to church and pray for God to deliver you from the FIRM grasps that Satan has on you! This is not healthy! It is depressing not only for YOU , but for those reading it!
P.E.JAY
www.pjaysongbird.spaces.live.com
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Posted by PEJAY
on 2007-12-21 13:06:00
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