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in a relationship there will ALWAYS be 2 faces. despite what u think ur partner is there will always be a side that ur never knew existed. sometimes i want to strangle my boyfriend. maybe one day i will...sorry he just said something to me that i didnt approve of. but anyways...my boyfriend somehow has a need to talk to other females off myspace. i know this is about to sound like a kiddie story but it isnt. so...from time to time he leaves himself logged in on myspace so of course i read his mail and vice versa. there is a need for a back up bitch in all circumstances. so my bf doesnt want to talk to me all the time w/e. that seems to be a problem now to me. so how can u get mad just because the person that i confide in was someone who ate me out...no relationship but i just got head from. and now he wants to read this blog like its a map to a treasure. so he tells me that he doesnt talk to any bitches but yet i never see any males friends that he talks to on myspace. so who knows what else he does when im not looking. i guess thats the reason he still has a lock on his phone. he says its because i snoop around but he looks at my shit as well should i put a lock on my phone. especially now since we had that issue from last week i think he has a different view on our relationship. my trust has pretty much deminished but what can i say.
my side is i say i trust him but i dont. i trust no one. i know how men are and i know how women are so how can i trust someone who is human who will think of themself before anyone else? with that being said i dont think marriage is for me. i cant put my all back into a relationship especially with someone that i think is one thing and may be another.i dont think he'll ever grow out of this. but i mean how could i and he just told me he wants to have sex with other people...im still not too sure how to feel about that. well i do. im mad as hell but i look like i dont care. jade cares because she is madly in love with jeffrey. jayden could give a fuck less. jayden is the bitch and she cares about no one but herself. he is smoothly fucking jade up and bringing jayden out. those are my two faces. but in normal news maybe im not meant to be in a relationship with anyone but myself. i swear if he fucks me over and does what i think he already does behind my back i will NEVER forgive him and i love him more than you could understand but i see this is getting to the point that trust no londer exists in our relationship. since i am pregnant he probably isnt too sure what will happen when i have the baby. we'll see one day. i promise not to do anything out of spite. i am who i am though....
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Posted by simplyjayden on 2008-07-10 00:03:06 | Rating: | Views: 45
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