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MCR and Green Day: where my obsession began

have you ever felt like you just wanted to let go of everything and just run away to somewhere better where you just start all over? well that's exactly how I feel. I seriously feel like that every day, I sometimes wish that I could run. Run to wherever I wanted to go, to start over. To run away from all the bad things to hide, but unfourtantly we cannot run from the demons we face within ourselves, no matter how hard we try, I try but it always ends up with me cursing to myself why I am so weak, why can't I be strong, try so hard to move on with my life from heart break? Trust me, I have had my heart broken three times by the same person, trust me it's so overwhealming, that I really wanted to end it all, but why am I still here? Well I could tell you:

MUSIC. Music saved my life, specfically My Chemical Romance and Green Day, sounds weird right? well not to me, these two bands are what is keeping sane, instead of going insane. When I hear thier songs I think about everything that has happened to me or what someone has said, and all that junk.

I first heard Green Day's music when American Idoit was released, first song I heard was Wake Me Up When September Ends, and I really loved the sound, and soon I was hooked into thier music, and I was only 8 years old when that album came out (I'm thirteen now btw), but I never really thought that one day listening to thier music would put me at ease from all the stupid preppy girl nonsense that happens at school between me and these group of the most annoying girls in the whole world....

I got hooked into My Chemical Romance through a good friend in sixth grade (before my life went to hell) and she told me to listen to a song of thiers, and soon I found myself obsessing over them, not just thier looks ;), but for thier music, thier music always had this message in them, especially in the song "Cancer" that one literally brought me to tears because one of my uncles on my mom's side died of cancer, and that song really helped.

Then when I had to move in the middle of the year last year, I found myself the new girl at a new school (AGAIN) and a bunch of people didn't really like me, so I decided that I would hate them too, and I began resenting school, and I needed something to take my mind off everything that was happening, so while I was on the computer one day I relaized I haven't listened to My Chemical Romance over a year so I began playing thier music again, and it really helped me, although I still have a hatered passion for the school I currently attend, My Chemical Romance and Green Day helped took my mind off all the drama that was happening to me... for no good reason...

But still I wouldn't be able to listen to them while I was at school because they freaking banned Ipods, so I had to go through the school day without hearing MCR or Green Day, and the worst thing was I really felt alone. Everyone pretended to be my friend, but in reality they talked crap behind my back, and it well... sucked.... I felt like no one loved me. no one liked me, that was until I met my good friend, Katherina, who is now a freshman in highschool, a year ahead of me, but still things with the people in my class didn't smooth over quickly.

I was teased and talked about, I was so upset with everything they said, one day when they said something to me in class I just lost it, and I literally cried, tears came out of my eyes, I was in tears, and when I got home I was even more upset I literally wanted to run away, but I didn't. I wanted to kill myself, I even planned it all out, but when I listened to MCR that day it chnaged my whole perpesctive, but it didn't make the emptiness and miserable feelings I felt.

from then on I've been listening to MCR & Green day ever since, I also listen to Fall Out Boy, Avenged Sevenfold, Metro Station and etc... but MCR and Green Day were the ones who actually saved me from killing myself and to survive the worst days of my life, if I could ever meet them I would tell them, how much they mean to me, and how much thier music mean to me, and to tell them thanks for saving my life when I was at the lowest point. I am still upset and hate my school and classmates with a fiery passion, but at least they don't bother me anymore... ;)

THANK YOU MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE AND GREEN DAY!!!!

xoxoxoxoxo,
shygirl101 aka sarah <3 <3