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brain boogers on my monitor

So my brain has been in over load the last few days and it has been driving me nuts. In debate of how free I wanted to let my laundry and view fly I have been keeping those thoughts to myself. Which results in to me walking around my house talking to myself out loud.

A lot of it i have to blame on people. Whether it is stupid people, selfish people, or unthoughtful people. They all seem to contribute to my little personal insanity. Which generally I'm good at ignoring these people and their little quirks. However when it gets thrown at me or directed to me I pay more attention to it than I should.

For instance, a friend of the family we, we shall dub him shrek for now. Shrek apparently doesn't know us as well as we thought he did, because he had this huge worry that in telling us that he thinks our son has autism it would make us not want to be friends with him. Well an opinon is an opinion and he isn't a dr., however when being told something like that we like to get the well why do you think that, and how did you come up with that conclusion. Since as a parent seeing the child everyday some things with out meaning to may escape you.

Well this wasn't a new topic with me and my husband because we threw that idea around before however, we didn't see him as being severely autistic like mr. shrek did. Which his decision was based off of being friends with a neighbor when he was a kid, who's brother was autstic.
So since his 3 yr wellness appt. is around the corner, I went to the handy dandy autistic research institute's website, and filled out an evaluation form to see what their thought on it was. Which off topic I totally loved one part I read on their site saying, "if you have met one autistic child, you've met one autistic child." More getting to the point the the systoms/ behaviors vary from person to person.

The institute I am totally happy with, because they got the results back to me very quickly so I can actually take them to the appt. with me. However, the results said he is autistic like, basically has some of the traits but isn't actually autistic. Which is more where I pegged my son. So I was planning on getting the dr. to set us up with a speech therapist perhaps to get him to talk more in responce to stuff. He has a huge vocab but won't use it. Which personally doesn't bother me a buch, he uses the vocab just not to respond to stuff. Maybe what he needs is more of a social therapy to get him to want to talk. Either way I know its there because he used to use it. I am happy with the results I got back, but frankly I would have been just as fine if he was autistic.

So back to my tangent with mr. shrek...... keep getting side tracked. He says that but still expects us to be in ever quest 2 every night all night long. Though suggesting that you would think we would be trying to spend more time with our son to see if we could progress his responce to questions. He is sooo hard core on this little mental idea of his that if we are not in game for a couple of nights when he is he assumes we quit the game.

Which drives me nuts! With my husband having duty every 3 days he is always missing in game every couple of days anyways. That being said i prefer to play the game with my husband, not power lvl my way to the end game as quick as possible. So I won't get on some nights when my husband has duty. Plus I'm Preggy and might I aid I am always sleepy when I'm preggy. I am geussing his wife wasn't or he is so used to her being always tired he doesn't take that in to consideration. That or me playing is way more important than me sleeping. At least when he is playing.

Now he is totally a nice person so I don't think he is really thinking those things. The thing is he, he just isn't thinking. Which if he is that conserned after not seeing us on for 2 days in a row you would think as a friend he would call and see if everything is ok or somthing if he is that conserned. Instead of 4 days later giving me a txt like we just smashed his dreams and are hiding from him because for whatever reason we suddenly don't want to be friends. Anywho, its one of my best examples of the people as of late. I must say it is completely stupid and totally somthing I would generally just blow off. However I can say at least that i find humor in this despite the fact i talked to myself about it for who knows how long. LOL