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when i grow up i don't want to get married
i know its werid
maybe its the fact that my parents got divoreced and my life would be amazing if they hadn't, but they did and i don't want to do that to someone
i'm into the whole, helping people thing
but i don't want to be the reason a persons life is messed up
and getting married is too much work
i mean, yea, you get to have fun and do the whole married couple thing
that how many kids do u think grow up and get married
its so oringial its just what people expect
and therefore when i tell them that i don't want it,, they question my sanity
its just stupid
anywho
the thing with my bro is not getting better
seriously, not to be mean, but everyone has problems
and my moms calling it a sickness
I told her to sit in a hole, and I’d pour some water on her so she could grow up
Because hes just going through a phase
And shes acting like hes gonna die or something
I had a party to go to
And o, guess what
Sitting at home while my bro sleep was something I had to do for my brother to get better
I know.
And I don’t really want to put my life on hold just because of him
I mean, I love him so much
But how is sitting at home, while he is sleeping, being bored as hell help?
Because when I’m bored,
I think
And I can’t think right now
Because if I think
I’ll cry
And I hate crying
All it shows is weakness
And I hate that
Because when I feel weak
I feel like I’m not in control of my life
And I am
At times
And I hate not being in control
So Saturday night I went to this party at steves house
Trust me I didn’t go for steve, I went because it was a party
And so nick was there
And I keep thinking about those talks I’ve had with him about sex
And I just can’t seem to understand whats his problem is
First I believe that I’m worth something to him, but I’m really not,
And then I think I’m not worth something to him, and I am
And then I am back to thinking that I am something to him, and he announces that hes done with me
Talk about being dramatic
so at the party I told nickey that I wanted to make out with nick
and of course, the great friend that she is, went and made out with him, and then she told me that she was sorry, and stuff but whatever she obvisesly wasn’t at all sorry
let me start over,
jenna and spencer are a couple now
yes it depresses me
because I still do like him
and he broke up with me because someone told him I was going to break up with him
ik third grade here we come
and so now him and jenna are having sex and stuff
I feel really dizzy so I’m going to finish this later, just in case I pass out, I don’t want this to be evidence as to why the libarian would flip
More soon
Sorry about leaving
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Posted by shortone3194 on 2008-01-22 12:22:38 | Rating: | Views: 59
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