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*gasp* Omigosh!!
i havent been on for a while and so much has happened! eek!
so i went to a party at my friend's house and "Heartbreaker" was there...well we ended up talking and having fun and flirting....and then he sat REALLY close to me...and tried to hold my hand!! but i fought the urge because i wasnt sure if it was wat i really wanted because i had finally gotten closure and wasnt sure if i was ready for that wound to be opened again...
well one of my guy friends who is his bff told me how "Heartbreaker" (i really need a new name for him lol) kept talking about how cool i was and how he had messed up by breaking up with me, and how we were perfect for each other...
so a few days later a few of us decided to go see the new Batman movie (which btw is amazing lol) and if course HE was there....and about halfway thru the movie he reaches over and takes my hadn *sigh* :) lol...well when the movie is over and we are all walking out he hugs me and asks me if i will give him a second chance...AND I DID
so its a month later and everything is going great...we are talking for at least 3 hrs everyday...
BUT THEN there is this fundraiser at school and we both r going....and when i get there he totally ignores me and flirts with some other girls and hugs her and she keeps grabbing her ass...all of this pisses me off and i decide to go flirt with the senior that likes me...(yes a senior and i am i sophmore!! hehe). but i just couldnt bring myself to do it because i didnt want to use him and upset "Heartbreaker". well eventually after 2 hours "heartbreaker" decides to talk to me and i just kinda blow him off a bit but he just keeps apologizing...so eventually i half-heartedly say its ok watev...and he hugs me...and as he pulls away we kiss (my first kiss!). And afterward things were ok but it just felt like something was missing and things were awkward...
{ok just between us...it was a TERRIBLE kiss! lol like i dont think he had any idea wat he was doing...and he lips were like all wet...and just gross...i always imagined my first kiss was gonna be something special...and this one just didnt measure up...}
well it has been a few days since then and i just dont think i like him anymore....not anymore than a friend at least...i mean i will always have SOME feelings for him but....its hard to explain. we havent talked much over these past few days either...so i think i am going to break up with him tonight....
So wish me luck...with watever choice i make... :-/
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Posted by shoppin_honey on 2008-08-14 20:30:07 | Rating: | Views: 29
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GOOD LUCK!
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Posted by Dancer78
on 2008-08-14 20:43:31
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